Friday, March 7, 2014

Wonder what else will happen to me.

I already cut myself and popped a vein a little in my hand.

Problem

A vein on my hand is popping by the knuckle some.

Problem

I keep throwing things and wanting to hit something.  Some people had jogged by me.

You think you can control my life?

Problem

Did I almost break my legs?

Are you talking back to me?

Problem

Should I just go to bed or practice.

Also, when I post something something else happens and others don't care @ it and think it's due to me and funny.

Problem

I'm being monitored by shit from someone.

Problem

My parents think they can do whatever they want to me because they're my parents.

Problem

My dad won't stop.

Problem

Mean secret messages.

Problem

My dad acted like a secret message he wouldn't come see my son on the death of his mom.

Also

Why can't I complain about my problems without punishments adding up?  I know my life is shit for being mixed.

Losing Respect

Ever thing someone older seems smart?  What if they are mean actually?  This is some thing, not an occurrence.

What's up?

Also, what's wrong with my dad?  He's so annoying.  And if I say so he'll be more annoying.  A lot of stupid things are being done.

This Is Where I Go

I am used to complaining about my problems constructively on my blog.  Doesn't everyone have an outlet?  What's wrong?  I got really mad inside.  I can't seem to help it.

Besides

I was criticizing and begging for help for my problems with no friends and feeling down.

Problem

These lousy adults are bringing in extraneous forces when I warned on it.  Well, it also got me really mad.  IT's being done repeatively.  People think they found the real me at home not as good as in public, but really I am.  I can complain if I want.  I will never forgive.

What I Don't Like

I don't like when certain people try to teach me a lesson because they really treat me like I'm an adult and I'm good.

Problem

Today is a special day.

The Night

I was in bed for over 12 hours.

Feeling Bad

I got another message because I wasn't mum, done on purpose.  My parents having access to my private life seems weird.  You can all get to my private life via my blog.  I didn't do anything bad, but they didn't like it and rubbed some thing in that may or may not be true.  They are on my back.  I'm also getting jokes from somewhere else that stay.

Thursday, March 6, 2014

New Videos

New Videos of Me Singing

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They are only so-so but shows I can sing still.

The Witch Mom

There were some girls around age 12-17 who had a witch for a mama.  Her name was Ellen DeeBeeDee!  The baby Chloe squealed, "Mom, when are we going to go ice skatin?"  "Very soon," replied mamma.

So, the oldest was Christina and she took Bella by the hand forcibly and they went out on the ice..  "Christina," said the mom, "I thought I told you-"  "Ah!!" squealed Bella as she slid on a strangely light spot.  Ellen rushed out to get her and shoved Christina outta the way.  "Ha ha," laughed little Chloe.  Jackie came over and looked, younger than Bella, and she said, "What a mess.."

Christina ran, but the 2 sisters caught up with her.  "You were supposed to help her!" they said.  Ellen carried her baby to a nicer place and warmed her by the fire.  She lecture Christina about being careful.

The 2 Girls in Town

There were 2 girls named Christina and Bella.  Christina was 18, and Bella was 15.  Bella was such a beautiful young girl who took ballet, and her sister was a singer.  Christina had raven hair that she had in smooth curls.  Bella had rich light red hair, but Christina had the freckles.  "Oh, mother!" said Bella, "How will we make it to school today in such weather?  How will I train??"  Her mother Sarah touched her around the waist and said to her, "Come here," and kept Bella nice and warm and spoke with her.

Meanwhile, back the the ranch, Christina was covering crops ever more in blanketing.  She went in hard at work to cook, for she had went to bed early and gotten enough rest much so.  There was a biy she liked by the name of Kurt Edwards.  ^99^ ^66^  She peered out int the distance, with her dark curls bouncing as she turned her head.  She went over to him and they talked about the farm and town..  she decided to abandon and went out to the dock with all the ships.  "Oh, Kurt," she said, "I want to be a sailer!  "Looks bleak to me," he replied."  We just lost another get and go of a gal.  "We are all bound to die sooner or later," she replied looking up at him with her glass eyes.  She walked over to where other girls were and sat on the grass just as she had a child.

Nite Nite Story - Wind's come in!

"Mommy," said Christina to Sarah, "I can hardly remember how to read."  She replied, "Well, that's fine, get some rest and you'll get better.."

She was the baby this time!  Bella came downstairs and said to her mother, "Mother, I'm so cold," with puppy dog eyes.  Sarah looked out of their window and said, "Yes, it's definiltey mighty chilly-"  Bella said, "I'd love to go out in the cold with you!"  "Quiet," said Christina.  Mother replied to her daughter Bella, "Well.. you can go there in the morning when it comes."  "Ooh," said Bella, "early morning chill."

Christina woke up, only 2 years old, scrambled outta bed and prepard herself some breakfast of potatos and bacon and cooked leaves.  Sarah came and picked up the tot and watched her daughter eat.

Ex er cise

Did a little Pilates..

Whom do I mean??

It's really all around..

I do not appreciate your lies

that I asked for too much attention but got it.
I know you don't love me.

..You love another younger, no one in particular
I can't care @ people when they break the rules in how they treat me.

Well

Sarah Brightman has a lot of love in her singing.

So

I'm not spechal in the same way.

But I couldn't!

I don't fight for the top in 1 way but I do talk @ what people think @ me.

What do you think

of dumping someone saying they ^used to be ^#1^ and playing around..

I say so because a lotta people got mad.  I talk because I do.  I didn't say poopoo!

Look around and you'll see what's found.

Don't look now, but..

If anyone is jealous of me for any reason, realize that you're competing against the rest of the world.

What I Know

I know people are mean to me cuz I'm not born in 1997.

They are encouraging for them to be normal.

Question

Why isn't anyone answering other posters @ Sarah Brightman on her Facebook?

Also, why am I typing this?  I had something going.

Problem

I don't want anyone interfering my life telling me I'm the same as a 50-year-old when I'm @ 25.

Problem

Please no more nonsense from extraneous people involved.  I am a talker, I do not shut up.

I know what she does..

Ellen likes to not say things.. and then I dunno guess she gets to talk to someone after that @ being on TV or like what it was at the Oscars behind the scenes.  Hope she got some pizza herself.

You know what else I think?

My mom doesn't even think I matter.  I looked at a picture of me and imagined her throwing it away.

Problem

People are picking on me.

Problem

They are asking me questions in the experiment.  They are saying someone hacked my computer and made things pop up.  They want me to get mad at them.

What If

My only problem is my dad?

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I labeled them as such.

Edit

Videos

They are just examples of my being able to sing again.

Funny

I didn't get a blog when I was 11.

Now

I'll see if I can enjoy myself.

Problem

I am always nice and right.  I can argue a sin of another adult.

How can you believe in this experiment?  I will never forgive.

Also

I don't know if this is necessary, but I feel uncomfortable sometimes @ having fun.

Why

Does my dad get suspicious about me getting attention from others but he thinks he can sit around and treat me like shit?

New Videos

New Videos of Me Singing

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They are just examples of my being able to sing again.

Problem

You listen to attention from other people but not me.  Like someone will protect me.  They listen to them, but I already protected myself and they didn't ever think they need ot listen to me.

Problem

You just want to lure in other people and because of Tim Burton or whatever be racist to me all the time.  Get other people to get hurt for me because you are racist and will never listen to what I've already said.  I need to leave the shithole thatis Orlando.

Problem

My dad is being mean to me.  I will never lower myself to him.
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Also

Ellen is on Twitter and Facebook like all day each day.  If I were her, I'd get off Facebook.

Interesting

Sarah Brightman is on Facebook every day now it seems - she is not conversation-ing, posting things 1 at a time.  That's above and beyond me as to her incentive and how that becomes befitting in one's life.  I guess you have to take what you can.

Question

Why do you think I have anything to do online [with people?]

Confused

So what, I'll catch it tomorrow?

TV

It didn't record today, so I have to watch it online.  Not sure if I'll be up for yesterday's.  I mean, I could be, but I want to at least take a break for some reason.  True, I do want to sing but am a bit tired to stand up through the warm-ups I get.

Well

I'm watching today's episode of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," supper late today.

Well..

Yesterday, I was out jogging and walking and with weights sometimes a total of like 3 or more hours.  I also danced the night awaa aa aay I danced the night away.  It took my breath awa a a ay it took my breath awayy!

Well

I didn't say New Orleanians "can't have their (grand)parents" or ancestors.  I just said I also was New Orleanian, just without real parents.

New Video

New Video of Me Singing

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Nitey Soon

Some Fact

I noticed that like supposedly people my age agreed I'd have some thing and then later it goes to someone younger.  It could go to someone older, but it doesn't and I'd rather talk about it than get it I guess cuz you only can live so long I dunno.. supposed to be okay I find it interseting to talk about.  It is so prevalent.  Nell Burton, Jackie Evancho.  You all thought it was the older people like Johnny Depp and Tim Burton.  It's like I was "never meant to get it.."  What?  Just like your opinion on me.  I can get the same thing as someone else in the world of figments of the imagination.  I feel that I actually would get what I deserved.

New Videos

New Videos of Me Singing

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Another Quote

"It may be 2014, but I am still young though feel closer and closer to being older."

Sadness

Extracted from me on Facebook

"I'm supposed to wait for things I can't have."

You see, everyone is uptight.  Things will never change.  I'm ready as I'll ever be.  There are some things others have that I may never have.
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I like this.

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Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Apology

Sorry to the getting upset @ New Orleans but didn't think through what I really meant.  Looks bad on Orlando.. they were affected and can't get out if you wanna know..

Schedule

I plan to watch the Ellen episodes from at least today and possibly tomorrow.  Ellen, I don't know when I'll get better, maybe not used to too much TV.  I don't know, I'm worried @ my future and I find myself working out and things.  Doing things, falling asleep, putting off things.  Messing up.

My Belief @ Myself

Everyone hates me - I'm "used" as a backdrop to and am not born in 1997.

Christina's Day

I went for a jog and got a slushie.  I jogged with weights for an hour far away.  I got soda.  I danced the night awa a ay aay I dancedthenightaway

YouTube Comment

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This was quite the experience. I learned from your ways to organize the experience. Like, if you want to criticize someone, put off things until they feel appropriate. I don't think I was fortunate in my growing up with peers. I had 2 or 3 besties. I most drew from my adventures in the oldest continuing city in the U.S..

Mobile

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jogging in a special place with weights

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What You Can't Even Really Do

You cannot literally say I am okay compared to others like that you wouldn't say the age of my mom compared to my real age should be a Granny and not do that to someone @ 10 years younger.

Jog

I wanna jog with my weights.  Some other day will be floor workouts, might get into my Pilates and Yoga diagrammed workouts.

More Pictures Soon I Think

I should post more kid pictures we have available, this 1 @ Disney should explain a lot..

Laundry, too.  Just ironed 1 load, not problem.  2 new shirts I like, same style different colors..

New Videos

New Videos of Me Playing Keyboard and Singing Seeing Me Sing

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Water in Space

Mobile

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Wow, you New Orleanians are having such a tantrum over what I feel @ you not treating me like 1 of you.  You always think you have the power to change my personal life.
11 hours of sleep

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Well

Listening to Sarah Brightman singing and will lie down listening to it.

Sum Up

I did say nigger and shit and k*** by accident in my head.  I was too tired to restrain myself, too fed up.  Didn't wanna mean it, esp. k***.  2nd time seemed more like I was mad tho and had to get it out.  Didn't need to the 1st time, but it happened.  Ruined my night, too.
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Monday, March 3, 2014

Problem

My mom said Sarah Brightman said something @ Kate Bush and my hearse.  I don't wanna be teased @ being like her cuz I'm not.

Mobile Soon

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Issue

I saw Maggie Liz Jones on "Star Crossed" and she thinks wow Georgia is New Orleans and my relatives are not Southern.  It hurts a lot.

Apology

Ellen, I'm home now and am sorry I was too tired to watch the show live.  I had a therapist meeting.

Heard a Song..

It sounded like a UK girl and sounded like she said "Yea, it's Japanese.."  It was "It's a Beautiful Day" like Sarah Brightman.  I was upset of course but felt a reaction and feel I will be judged for ^what it was^.  I just was challenging what was said.  Why do they want to separate people by blood?  In that case, you won't know if I look Asian.

Chose

If I had to pick Sarah Brightman or Kate Bush, I'd pick both to be nice.

Mobile Later

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ate a large pan pizza @ pizza hut today w/mild wings and cinnamon sticks
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Sunday, March 2, 2014

Question

Why are people so wild @ things being asymmetrical popularity-wise?  The think it makes them English, things that are atypical is all.