Problem

Why can my dad know about what I do in private?  I am a big girl.  I live for *** not daddy.. I have the same relationship as before.  :|

What I Want or Feel

My parents don't care about my talents if it's something they don't have, like being a girl like my mom but with traits from my dad..

Mobile Later

may or may not post

Well

Everyone always said I was really good.  Why do you all think you are good?  So it's forever for Bella and Ellen??

So what?

So what?  Bella is privately beating a fish at me?

Let me just say I didn't start anything with Ellen.

spechal

I'm as special as anyone..  }:|

Ha Ha Ha

I mean his cause.

Forget It-

Tim made me passive aggressive.

You know..

..I felt like I Was touching Sarah Brightman all over like a hug a couple days ago.

Wa?

Why does Bella get all her dreams come true?  I can feel the rain falling from here.  Uh, now, I don't know what I was trying to say.

I looked at her picture and she is a defiant person.  Guess she covers up sometimes.  She looked absolutely ecstatic and out of control emotionally.  She darted a lotta hate at me just so I could talk @ it, but her joy is real.

I am happy Bella gets her dream to come true, but aren't you jealous?  Why does Ellen just like her?  I did want her to focus on 1 daughter, and she comes from a good background.  Her sister looks almost like her but isn't famous, so that made me wonder.

I get the feeling no one wants to talk @ it, so I will alone.

Usually, I don't have to see it, but that's all that's happening.  It's so much better for people her age.  I know she acted mean to me cuz she likes me and doesn't want me to feel jealous and like it's okay to be upset.  Also, let's ask why Ellen treats Bella the best.  Anyone want in with me?  I do do that..  This is all torturing me @ having to be with someone else when I see Ellen.  It's not really torture, but it's made to feel that way.  You can't ask Ellen to like you, she likes you or she doesn't.  I think it's just an age thing.  It's a pretty big thing.  See, I never really get Ellen.  What a liar though with all that hurt directed at me, how disgusting.  I'm not talking to her in saying this nor do I expect her nor anyone to read it.  I'm just putting myself|this out there.

My Age

Look for "what" and you won't find -any- parents.

OOO KAYY

I already said I was okay with Bella with Ellen but that it just makes me jealous and guilty-feeling.

Miss Popularity Contest

So, Ellen, how do you know everyone will always be all over Bella??

Just Trash

Ellen thinks I'm trash cuz she can wait for another joke to be pulled.

Well

Bella is perfect.  She is the best.  She is Ellen's only daughter.  I just don't like what emits from the show with a relief that I am too old to be her daughter.

I'll try.

Bella has darker features than Ellen but is so beautiful..

You shoulda seen her dark blue eyes!  She dresses like a wh***!  LOL kidding around okay??  Look I'm a wh*** in other ways..  Sounds like a word other young people would use on others..

Sounds like..

..something a director would say, "Oh, Christina is too exotic (or like dark.)"

Sorry, though, yes in a hurry or don't know what to say..

Get a load'a' this.

link

So far Bella is best but she's too dark.

Well..

..Ellen, hope you really like Bella.. she's a bit coy and has dark dark eyes.  Her hair is brown and so colored.

Well, I saw someone @ Disney..

..act like during Katrina when people pretended I was the special 1.

I mean..

..I guess Bella is set for it just because of birth year..

Question

So, Ellen has to pretend she has a baby, like we weren't good enough.  Why does age have to kill someone else?

Well, Okay

Well, Ellen, I guess I'll just say you're ^ready^ for Bella from me.

I know you wanna seem and be nice and still also want to remember me, so I'll say I'm happy for it but hope your other fans find their chance~

A Doofus

So, again, I'm really sorry @ what I said but don't want to go back and erase it so people know it was up.  I didn't mean it in a bad way.  It just was a word choice of something I wanted to say.  I saw something like it in the show, too.  I went back to show my dad, but I ended up showing him the part where I was.

Ironing Today

and probably tomorrow and the next day and so forth, most of the week.. what shall it be "Ghost Adventures?"

Why'd I say that?

Now, nothing seems like it.

Shallow

No not really, but that reminded me of Poland.

What I Meant

Was I hoped you'd know that the difference between Chloe S. and Ellen is that there's a part of them that probably doesn't happen now.  I feel they want ot k*** me, though that isn't a nice thing to think.  I mean, I thought it was just Ellen and the teens, but I guess it's Chloe, too.

And..

..because I explained myself I was able to make a criticism and prediction of the futu' (future!)

Have fun!

Have fun in Finland, Sarah Brightman!

Question

So, you have to find out, which person accidentally thinks Ellen is something inappropriate.. would that prove her theories are all wrong, like being mean cuz she has to and think no one will say no?  I guess I latched onto another personality like her however they both have their shallow side waiting to come out.  :(  What can I say?  Anyway.. Ellen would have said that, let's move along, I don't find them what they think they have wrong.  :|

Making People Wonder..

Some people don't agree to treat me normally, and they wonder why I'm not talking to them maybe.

Questionable Things

So, my aunt cowers before others but to me is questionable but maybe just trying to help.  Bosses over me.

Evidence..

Before I said "oh no" when my dad came home cuz my hw wasn't done so we had no time together, my mom and maybe dad started acting bossy and telling me I'm complaining when I was just talking, maybe wanting to feel smarter and thinking of advanced things.

Problem

When I am nice to others or kids or babies, howcome that's not enough?  You do nothing for them.  You just take care of their poop.  And I was 5 when my brother was born.  You take away from the youngest.  No one ever gets what they need.  Adults do that.  They don't make themselvse ugly.

TV

The "Pilot" episode of "Those Who Kill" is available in full online right now!  link.  So why not you give it a chance??  You might need it one day..yea!

IMDb - The Soapbox

How do you feel @ idealizing..

..kids born just in 1985 as ^wrong^? to make kids born in 1991 and 1997 look better? and leaving responsibilities up for the oldest young people?

Problem

Why is Ellen gonna worry on her show and misinterpret what I said.. and I feel on edge.. @ how she has poor or shallow speaking skills?  A public speaker need not be eloquent.

Problem

If people like Ellen are off-limits to me for no reason should just be the same to everyone else in the competition.

Still Sane

Even though I'm so excited for this series, which probably is not that long, I still feel my life is not rooted in it.

Different Lives

Ever since I moved to Orlando, my parents acted like my life wasn't as good.  Now, I'm in a support group but supposed to look up volunteer work which will allow me to get help in finding a job.

Well

So, you know Bella always seems to think it's @ her, so what's wrong @ me?  Bella does that all the time.  Her pictures look rebellious and I'm tired of Bella with outgrown bangs

Problem

They just favor the baby and want to deal with me like a mistake.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Young Star Bella Thorne likes Ellen DeGeneres

They are doing all crazy things to make a big deal out of it.

She thinks she is punishing me by having attention go to her since I'm 1/2 her age, but Bella Thorne is like a thorn in my side. I was nice to her, and she decided I was bad and did something in her presence and did something else she's probably not supposed to do, too.

She treats Bella in a way I'd have liked because of her younger age, as well, but I don't really want that and do not feel like forgiving her. What I mean by that is I won't also make her take it back or something. I just won't acknowledge anything different in a way, and anyway things are the same.

People are like going eunuch @ Bella and wanting me to be a way I don't want to be for her. It's making me feel like I can't do good unless it's being a way I don't want to be for Bella. I want to be cool like her, but I like being cool like I've been more.

Well, here Bella is.. born @ 1997 http://goo.gl/kiWUA0

And no..

..I don't need to do anything for a brat in order to get anything from anyone else.  I already did something.  You just want me to not feel good.  You can't make something outta your sick mistake.  Who are you?  Why do you sound like Kate Bush, who likes to hide unfortunately actually like a stick in the mud.

Problem

They want me to be a way I don't want, like an older lady like some older girls do, -for- Bella like I'm on the side.  Why do that for Bella?  I can already feel it and I want it off.  I'm just feeling crazy all the time with people monitoring me on camera.

Oscar Prep

Prep for Ellen @ Oscars

She thinks Bella's her new ^bottle baby^ and is worried @ the press.  How lame that would be if someone thought that @ me.

Funny

Bella seems to jump in less than I would.  They apparently are putting on an act like they get nothing.  Those girls born @ 1997-9.

The Night

10-11 hours of sleep

5'2" almost

nostalgic, dangerous dream

A Bad Feeling

I have the feeling Bella does not want me happy.  She has Ellen's priority, what more does she want!?