Friday, February 28, 2014
Yes I did
was thinking everything happens for its own reason-
:) always a good thing as long as no one is hurting
:) always a good thing as long as no one is hurting
Problem
Why can't I just live my life? It's so hard to be encouraged in Hollywood at this age. I have bad parents, don't like their emotion as much as others..
Problem
My parents also played a fantasy that they ***ed up my brother as an infant.. bad parents yes but I still exits
Problem
You can't just do whatever you want to me. You all are mean.
This is God Damn humiliating. My future daughter zonked in your selfish fantasy could be true? I did say you could imagine what you like, but I don't like this bombardment. Zonked away with others to be something that doesn't really function??
This is God Damn humiliating. My future daughter zonked in your selfish fantasy could be true? I did say you could imagine what you like, but I don't like this bombardment. Zonked away with others to be something that doesn't really function??
Problem
Why wasn't my daughter the way she wants with my dad? I don't wanna pretend this. It seemed to have an effect. Why does this happen just to me?
Problem
Ellen does things you aren't supposed to do, like if I think of something where I'm always bombarded I have to be punished heavily, for an unfair occurrence.
Problem
Well, Ellen don't wanna get mad at you, but guys you won't believe what's happened.. what are we gonna do? @ my future daughter. It's been overdone, like the life sucked outta her.
Problem
You're just punishing me now with Kate Bush, and you don't care @ her. I am right, you are wrong.
Like using her to punish me.
Like using her to punish me.
So..
*imagines Ellen crying*
Do you care that you are so judgemental? I will not be controlled by that! Like, hm am I stupid did I do something wrong after everything I think. You don't like that, do you..
Do you care that you are so judgemental? I will not be controlled by that! Like, hm am I stupid did I do something wrong after everything I think. You don't like that, do you..
Problem
Why are you suggesting Sarah Brightman is selfish to test herself ^spinning^ for space? Are you a sicko? I had no issue. Go figure it out yourself, you big baby.
I hope this has nothing to do with all the hatred that's been going around-
What, so I'm just bothered all the time? I am an adult and want my privacy.
I hope this has nothing to do with all the hatred that's been going around-
What, so I'm just bothered all the time? I am an adult and want my privacy.
Problem
Ellen supposedly has something to do with my future daughter. I said I don't wanna pretend my neighbors have her. It's like there's nothing left if life for me. I refuse to accept it. I was also made fun of for even taking care of this mess..
I didn't get to post this, but I laughed really hard when she showed a tan lady looking all forlorn. I think this may be after but probably not.
I happened to get upset and mentioned what it was that tipped me off and this is what it was.
What are you gonna do now? It's too late! I'm mad. Ellen is a liar.
I didn't get to post this, but I laughed really hard when she showed a tan lady looking all forlorn. I think this may be after but probably not.
I happened to get upset and mentioned what it was that tipped me off and this is what it was.
What are you gonna do now? It's too late! I'm mad. Ellen is a liar.
Well..
..Kate Bush is okay, but I can outdo Connie Francis and Celine Dion. Not everyone. Like normalk people
It seems..
..the only famous English singers are Kate Bush and Sarah Brightman. I am more dainty.. aren't they both kinda big
Problem
I can't seem to change cuz then I'd think I was more like Sarah Brightman or clearly not like Ellen. I am my own person, I am 27. I find myself having to be like her so I don't hurt someone.
The Difference
I'm smaller than Kate Bush and am possibly more muscular or have been more lately. When you always think @ her, it makes me think of someone big you don't want to hug you.
Well
If you don't want me to treat you in that weird way you've labeled Kate Bush, then maybe not acting like that would help. I see she too doesn't have just 1 personality. She may be schizophrenic, sorry to say, or seem that way, rather. Like, Ellen, "it's the hair."
My Post @ That Site
The Carpenters @ Facebook
I posted something that is technically okay to post @, but it's abnormal for most because they wanna keep you guessing. It's something older adults touch on to survive.
I posted something that is technically okay to post @, but it's abnormal for most because they wanna keep you guessing. It's something older adults touch on to survive.
Why did I have dark hair?
My hair is lightening now.
I mean I was born with brown hair and it got lighter in the sun.
I mean I was born with brown hair and it got lighter in the sun.
Problem
Ever since I was simply ousted from college indefinitely with a bunch of ideas that make no sense, I've not been on path. People are acting like they did when they ousted me, like they know what I'm really thinking all of a sudden. Base line is I'm actually not. It doesn't make me schizophrenic that I did what I was supposed to, while others are more social supposedly. They think I'm really thinking like ooh I got them good, but that's not why I do what I do, and I don't think it like that. If I did is none of their business. They weren't nice. They think I was stupid to do Music Education, but we do it so we can learn other instruments and about having fun like a kid.
How's It Feel?
How comfortable do you want to be having people barging in and getting mad at you, pushing you to feeling about something you don't want to feel about?
Why am I so fat after working out so hard?
Are you gonna say I'm talking @ something specific and get mad? Well, people do barge in, and some just get mad.
Is there actually something wrong with what I said? Why don't you think of me as I am? You just think I'm 1/2 Chinese. Well, not everyone. I was just talking with my dad, was okay. I told him how this fan page has been quiet with only my post remaining. A bunch of mad people or fans with no solution. I've gotten over her death, but it is kinda sad esp. for them.
Why am I so fat after working out so hard?
Are you gonna say I'm talking @ something specific and get mad? Well, people do barge in, and some just get mad.
Is there actually something wrong with what I said? Why don't you think of me as I am? You just think I'm 1/2 Chinese. Well, not everyone. I was just talking with my dad, was okay. I told him how this fan page has been quiet with only my post remaining. A bunch of mad people or fans with no solution. I've gotten over her death, but it is kinda sad esp. for them.
Submissions
Goosebumps
and a new singing show, like The Voice or America's Got Talent or The X Factor
and a new singing show, like The Voice or America's Got Talent or The X Factor
My Hair
My parents got it dark before I could barely talk. I didn't do it. I didn't have pretty skin.
If I were in with a famous person might be..
..Jonah Hill? The girl from "A Series of Unfortunate Events" as a liked person. Lindsay Lohan. Slightly older than her.
I can sum her up in a nutshell.
It's cool to reject the supposition of thinking seriously like a trap but to rebuttle with some snazz.
Ellen DeGeneres
Ellen DeGeneres
Problem
Why did Google add more things at the top? A red g+ share button and More?
What if it's because of me? The world hates me for being 1/2 Chinese. I don't need any of you.
What if it's because of me? The world hates me for being 1/2 Chinese. I don't need any of you.
Problem
I was posting on my blog and had to do something and I found my blog reloading. I don't wanna watch for this. It was also done in tacky spite. I can even see laughing hysterically.
Response
Sarah Brightman
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I think I need to accept that sometimes I can rest my voice and that I need to warm up more to get it to work.
It's nice to travel for a vacation. I hope you have fun with others you know, as well, friends, close friends, business friends.
I am fond of Middle Eastern as are most mature individuals.
Wow, this is a real test for you, seeing doctors all the time. I hated acupuncture.
Speaking of chorus in general I've been in it from mostly age 7 - 20. I am sure to land a role in a singing chorus on Broadway. I know how to dance but not advanced dancing like spinning around twice. I'd have to practice to get to spinning around once.
Have fun in Paris. I want to go to France and England but not necessarily like Paris and London. I assume with my love for the arts I would land in London since I'm American. If I were in NYC, I imagine I'd be a ballerina. They are treated so specially. I know I can always dance. Athletically, not been given the training, would need private coaches.
I simply ruined my voice with Johnny Depp's popularity, nuff said.
I'm sorry your aunt died. My great aunt-in-law died recently, as well, the night my aunt and dad and I went to a concert by Orla Fallon, an Irish singer with a French maiden name, Karron, from Normandy, I'm pretty sure.
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So, I think you're good to go, actually think of it as having something to look forward to that's a little more exciting and like a vacation. I think it'd be terribly uncomfortable up there 10 days thinking you wouldn't last a day.
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I think I need to accept that sometimes I can rest my voice and that I need to warm up more to get it to work.
It's nice to travel for a vacation. I hope you have fun with others you know, as well, friends, close friends, business friends.
I am fond of Middle Eastern as are most mature individuals.
Wow, this is a real test for you, seeing doctors all the time. I hated acupuncture.
Speaking of chorus in general I've been in it from mostly age 7 - 20. I am sure to land a role in a singing chorus on Broadway. I know how to dance but not advanced dancing like spinning around twice. I'd have to practice to get to spinning around once.
Have fun in Paris. I want to go to France and England but not necessarily like Paris and London. I assume with my love for the arts I would land in London since I'm American. If I were in NYC, I imagine I'd be a ballerina. They are treated so specially. I know I can always dance. Athletically, not been given the training, would need private coaches.
I simply ruined my voice with Johnny Depp's popularity, nuff said.
I'm sorry your aunt died. My great aunt-in-law died recently, as well, the night my aunt and dad and I went to a concert by Orla Fallon, an Irish singer with a French maiden name, Karron, from Normandy, I'm pretty sure.
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So, I think you're good to go, actually think of it as having something to look forward to that's a little more exciting and like a vacation. I think it'd be terribly uncomfortable up there 10 days thinking you wouldn't last a day.
Problem
Why do I keep getting messages from annoying little men saying that things aren't okay with me. They aren't fit for being parents. I am nice, and they are mean to me.
Thye only are nice when they are cuz that could be them. They keep saying they "have" to be mean because something would happen anyway.
Thye only are nice when they are cuz that could be them. They keep saying they "have" to be mean because something would happen anyway.
Problem
I don't wanna be shit on by someone ..like I think something Johnny Depp is doing actually is thinking I'm not all that though everyone suggested that I was. I never asked them to but I don't wanna be called shit by someone prestigious.
Also, people freely mistreat me for being 1/2 Chinese all the time.
Why should my dad copy everything I do like I can't escape nor be my own person? He can take what he likes. I don't want to not be an individual.
And I never feel privacy while I'm not dressed with these people electing to talk to me via little machines in my room and house and even in other places.
Also, people freely mistreat me for being 1/2 Chinese all the time.
Why should my dad copy everything I do like I can't escape nor be my own person? He can take what he likes. I don't want to not be an individual.
And I never feel privacy while I'm not dressed with these people electing to talk to me via little machines in my room and house and even in other places.
Problems
Why am I getting messages from Sarah Brightman via my dad? I am not that close to him nor want to be in a way. Tim Burton cannot make us too close because he has a daughter.
I got a specific message that my dad deserves to speak Enlgish more, as an accent, than me cuz I'm 1/2 Chinese from my mom and my mom learned real English, whereas he didn't care. I've already asked him a lot.
Also, I don't want my daughter even rubbed off too much from my dad, and here I have it my neighbor is feasting in her. My fish reminded me of him|them. This is from something supposedly Ellen did I think.
I don't know @ Asians. I thought they should act European. It's too late from the point I thought that to change anything. I've said it before, too. They seem to think they have their chance but didn't really take it, just said they had something in Asian that had to do with the difference, though China thinks you can be both easily but they don't ^need^ to and I can see why.
I got a specific message that my dad deserves to speak Enlgish more, as an accent, than me cuz I'm 1/2 Chinese from my mom and my mom learned real English, whereas he didn't care. I've already asked him a lot.
Also, I don't want my daughter even rubbed off too much from my dad, and here I have it my neighbor is feasting in her. My fish reminded me of him|them. This is from something supposedly Ellen did I think.
I don't know @ Asians. I thought they should act European. It's too late from the point I thought that to change anything. I've said it before, too. They seem to think they have their chance but didn't really take it, just said they had something in Asian that had to do with the difference, though China thinks you can be both easily but they don't ^need^ to and I can see why.
Thursday, February 27, 2014
TV
Just finished "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" from today. Hopefully yesterday tomorrow or this weekend.
Help
I e-mailed for help finding traveling musicals to audition for. Mary Poppins is due today by mail. It's in Alabama, the 1st place discovered in the U.S.
I should cook..
..no mushrooms but do have bacon, maybe should wait for this. What can I eat? Shrimp? More broccoli? The shrimp was for another dish.
Dream
Also, my dad and I were having vanilla ice cream, and I had strawberries, and he took a few of what was left of his raspberries.
Article
Sarah Brightman
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Sarah Brightman . Hovet February 26.February 27, 2014 at 8:08 | Permalink | Comments (0)
In September next year, Sarah Brightman into space. Specifically, to the International Space Station ; 40 mil up in the air. There, she will sing and participate in a concert down to earth via the link . It sounds like a joke but it is true.
The British soprano , who broke through as Christine in the original production of " Phantom of the Opera " , says either about his upcoming space trip or on the preparatory training camp in Russia when she lands with her touring party at Hovet . But the whole show - yes it is a show rather than a concert - still feels located in outer space , with the protagonist himself depicted as an extraterrestrial being more than a man of flesh and blood .
Unfortunately she breaks the illusion twice by her old fashioned servile manner greet us and introduce singer Erkan Aki . It's crazy wrong , maybe she could talk to us with distorted voice and a completely incomprehensible language .
Compared with previous touring productions is that of the more toned-down battle. No symphony orchestra, just four guys on keyboards , guitar and drums, and two dancers. The improbable creations , much more fun and glam than Lars Wallin could ever dream up , she meant by it. And enough hoisted her up and down from the stage. However, no flight cancellations over the sparsely occupied Hovet .
As long as she sticks to the musicals and the arias are all fine and dandy . The inevitable " Nessun dorma " is betagnade with bouzoki (!) And a vocal performance by Sarah Brightman who calls both Bianca Castafiore and "Star Wars ."
The wonderful Bianca Castafiore feeling naturally emerges also in the heartbreaking screams ending " Phantom of the Opera ." Then we should all rise up and cheer. But not so, the Swedish audience is unusually dull this Wednesday evening in the ice tray .
Less funny is it when she embarks with the more popinriktade material. But when the music is akin to pompous pophymner with thick synth carpets have at least exploding galaxies and nebulae on the big screen to watch.
Finally , a gold star is awarded for " Closer" (ending last album and starts the second act at the Royal Court ) is a recast of the end of the first part of Mike Oldfield's masterful suite "Tubular bells " . The Vivian Stanshall featuring all the instruments. It just makes sense when the British prog rock course also had turgid draft.
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Sarah Brightman . Hovet February 26.February 27, 2014 at 8:08 | Permalink | Comments (0)
In September next year, Sarah Brightman into space. Specifically, to the International Space Station ; 40 mil up in the air. There, she will sing and participate in a concert down to earth via the link . It sounds like a joke but it is true.
The British soprano , who broke through as Christine in the original production of " Phantom of the Opera " , says either about his upcoming space trip or on the preparatory training camp in Russia when she lands with her touring party at Hovet . But the whole show - yes it is a show rather than a concert - still feels located in outer space , with the protagonist himself depicted as an extraterrestrial being more than a man of flesh and blood .
Unfortunately she breaks the illusion twice by her old fashioned servile manner greet us and introduce singer Erkan Aki . It's crazy wrong , maybe she could talk to us with distorted voice and a completely incomprehensible language .
Compared with previous touring productions is that of the more toned-down battle. No symphony orchestra, just four guys on keyboards , guitar and drums, and two dancers. The improbable creations , much more fun and glam than Lars Wallin could ever dream up , she meant by it. And enough hoisted her up and down from the stage. However, no flight cancellations over the sparsely occupied Hovet .
As long as she sticks to the musicals and the arias are all fine and dandy . The inevitable " Nessun dorma " is betagnade with bouzoki (!) And a vocal performance by Sarah Brightman who calls both Bianca Castafiore and "Star Wars ."
The wonderful Bianca Castafiore feeling naturally emerges also in the heartbreaking screams ending " Phantom of the Opera ." Then we should all rise up and cheer. But not so, the Swedish audience is unusually dull this Wednesday evening in the ice tray .
Less funny is it when she embarks with the more popinriktade material. But when the music is akin to pompous pophymner with thick synth carpets have at least exploding galaxies and nebulae on the big screen to watch.
Finally , a gold star is awarded for " Closer" (ending last album and starts the second act at the Royal Court ) is a recast of the end of the first part of Mike Oldfield's masterful suite "Tubular bells " . The Vivian Stanshall featuring all the instruments. It just makes sense when the British prog rock course also had turgid draft.
Dream
I was with my dad going through this like Phantom of the Opera basement thing. We had to walk swiftly, as though to get away from someone. A black girl was so confused she kept seeing is near the end.
Problem
I heard a click and think they wanted to ruin my daughter! How is that just okay for me? Invading my privacy??
Problem
My dad sounded like he meant "chair" and now I feel tingly on it. I don't want this stuff to keep coming up just to me. When will it go away? It has to!!
What I Feel Is Come and Gone Before
I don't think we should be getting messages of Ellen DeGeneres acting like a digressed, retarded child in Autistic pleasure. I think it is just a lie. She doesn't do anything to deserve that. She is there for young people just like any older adult. It does not suggest anything like the fancy I described. She was supposed to be there for us, likely she'll lose her job since I like watching the show. If she didn't know Portia, life would be better for the other people in the world.
Bad News
My new pictures shows no eyefolds. I felt my future son doesn't have his just by talking to someone on the phone. I did hang up quickly. They sounded like they called me a l*******.
Well, Ellen, don't expect me to watch your show until maybe next week or catch up on the weekend some of it. I was trying to catch up and ended up getting up and leaving.
Well, Ellen, don't expect me to watch your show until maybe next week or catch up on the weekend some of it. I was trying to catch up and ended up getting up and leaving.
Wednesday, February 26, 2014
Accustomed to Her Face - something in the air..
I've grown worn of the songs Sarah Brightman sings. Wonder if we'll get new songs when she comes back from space hopefully early 2015, so she can do
Talking It Out
So, if I talk @ something, I get another problem? I just felt so hurt and that's what you do unless you're with Ellen and your name is Christina.
Singing
Does Jackie Evancho think we are equals for some reason? Is everyone an equal. I like to sing differently..
Question
Why do people give a care @ my old best friends? I wanted them not to be over and above recurringly in my life. That was the nightmare. Since the n word thing, the world was only bad.
Congratulations!
Sarah Brightman, you have reached a broad spectrum of audience! Congratulations to the conclusion of this tour. I hope you were able to enjoy the experience of singing for all these eager people who have accepted you. :]
I know in Orlando, lots of people in front were recording. I'd love a relic from your shop and could afford it!.. I have been following you online since I saw you, and I will miss terribly your availability but mostly am happy you can rest now moreso!
I know in Orlando, lots of people in front were recording. I'd love a relic from your shop and could afford it!.. I have been following you online since I saw you, and I will miss terribly your availability but mostly am happy you can rest now moreso!
next
eating
laundry to iron
watch Ellen DeGeneres or sleep for Disney - sorry Ellen hope to catch up with some of each show this week, just had leftover laundry from before Halloween visiting Gramma who's now sick - tho I'll be finished now catching up to a normal level :)
laundry to iron
watch Ellen DeGeneres or sleep for Disney - sorry Ellen hope to catch up with some of each show this week, just had leftover laundry from before Halloween visiting Gramma who's now sick - tho I'll be finished now catching up to a normal level :)
Measurements
| Weight | Waist | Height | |
| 01-04-2014 | 158.0 pounds | ||
| 1-08-2014 | 157.4 pounds | ||
| 01-22-2014 | 155.8 pounds | 31" | 5'1" |
| 01-24-2014 | 155.0 pounds | 31" | 5'2" |
| 02-07-2014 | 156.4 pounds | ||
| 02-15-2014 | 154.8 pounds | ||
| 02-24-2014 | 154.2 pounds | 31" | 5'2" |
| 02-26-2014 | 153.6 pounds |
Apology
For some reason if someone says something to me like birthday or baby, I get upset. When I thought of the words to chose from, the anger quelled. I don't want these thoughts. Why won't anyone help me? It really hurts. It's not okay. I know no one loves me in this. And if you did it to someone else, it would be important. You see, I take 1 point from each message, that someone is out to get me.
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
I don't think..
..Ellen cares @ me, she just lets me get upset and ugly @ stuff she does to me. What is that for?
And
I don't need to compromise anything. I don't care @ other people.
But you all won't leave me alone.
But you all won't leave me alone.
Problem
My neighbors are acting like they have my future daughter. I want them to stop. It can't be true. You all are bad, and I am not! Why would you like that? The people here are weird, too. They're like in general too fat and lazy on the inside. I just find it disgusting, and it's true, I can say that. It came up, too, as far as me not talking @ stuff. I want to talk to someone @ it, but my therapist never has anything to answer me back with.
Problem
I don't want a thing going on with these neighbors of mine because of Tim Burton. They should not even be watching me.. They keep wanting a handle on their mistakes. I know Ellen would not like this done to her and I don't know why she does it. I mean, it just makes me think of that.. I don't wanna do anything for her. Bella doesn't. I mean like that, I feel so picked at and like people all think I'm something I'm not. I got annoyed that my neighbors have a thing with me cuz I was upset they were at me.
Problem
I can't really take that Ellen thinks I did something wrong. I mean, how picky can you be? Just put away the idea she made me curse @ something she didn't care @. Think @ what it really ^says^ to be a fan of Tim Burton.
I just feel she thinks she has to make fun of people for no reason. I think it's funny when she does it to people who seem to deserve it in a way possibly, but what do I know?
I just feel she thinks she has to make fun of people for no reason. I think it's funny when she does it to people who seem to deserve it in a way possibly, but what do I know?
Problem
I get very little respect.. think of what Chloe Moretz thinks of my living space!..
You all wanna know if I care @ getting closer to my own parents and when I already stil live with them. Well, my dad doesn't come up and hug me like a business man. My mom doesn't now, neither.
I'm concerned you believe I have to be big and burly in the same way as my dad, but I do that in an unemotional way.
You all wanna know if I care @ getting closer to my own parents and when I already stil live with them. Well, my dad doesn't come up and hug me like a business man. My mom doesn't now, neither.
I'm concerned you believe I have to be big and burly in the same way as my dad, but I do that in an unemotional way.
Question
Wasn't it inapporpriate to tell someone they are another race? I don't know, I am part white, so that wasn't supposed to apply to me.
Also, why would I be a dirty American if my mother is not??
Also, why would I be a dirty American if my mother is not??
Bored
The early childhood education program is msot exciting. I will use it to work with adults.
I do still find I like singing, so we'll see. I don't know if I wanna do music in college. Early Childhood studies is easy and fun and better than hanging around here. I said it wasn't much work. What could it possibly be? I'm not gonna just sit here and go to Disney.. once a week..
I do still find I like singing, so we'll see. I don't know if I wanna do music in college. Early Childhood studies is easy and fun and better than hanging around here. I said it wasn't much work. What could it possibly be? I'm not gonna just sit here and go to Disney.. once a week..
Another Play Request
Not to ^disturb^ me @ my dad and his many insecurities. I liked him for what he claimed to be.
I must add..
..they do act like they're not good enough though I see the end result and what they really think @ me. Another friend seemed to put them in place.
Question
Why does anyone care @ my 2 old best friends? They did not IM me. Why were they friends ever? Because they are better than me??
Singing
I just wore myself out. Not posting any videos now. I think I'm posting them on Facebook, now. There is a copyright thing on YouTube.
Apology
I guess I had gotten a little upset there when my dad upset me, sorry @ that, feeling clumsy.
I will use this degree to..
..get jobs in educational communications or acting with children or directing with children..
Measurements
| Weight | Waist | Height | |
| 01-04-2014 | 158.0 pounds | ||
| 1-08-2014 | 157.4 pounds | ||
| 01-22-2014 | 155.8 pounds | 31" | 5'1" |
| 01-24-2014 | 155.0 pounds | 31" | 5'2" |
| 02-07-2014 | 156.4 pounds | ||
| 02-15-2014 | 154.8 pounds | ||
| 02-24-2014 | 154.2 pounds | 31" | 5'2" |
My Relationship
I am nice to my dad, but I don't feel as attracted to him ***ually as with other extremely attractive people sometimes in some ways, and I do consider the world my life, too.
Comment by Me
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Christina says – reply to this
Well, yes, a very sweet girl or young lady, ready in the world! I wish I knew her.
Christina says – reply to this
Well, yes, a very sweet girl or young lady, ready in the world! I wish I knew her.
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Well, yes, a very sweet girl or young lady, ready in the world! I wish I knew her.
- See more at: http://perezhilton.com/cocoperez/2014-02-03-chloe-sevigny-rodarte-the-wait-los-angeles-screening#comment-6639576
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Well, yes, a very sweet girl or young lady, ready in the world! I wish I knew her.
- See more at: http://perezhilton.com/cocoperez/2014-02-03-chloe-sevigny-rodarte-the-wait-los-angeles-screening#comment-6639576Monday, February 24, 2014
Problem
Why can my dad know about what I do in private? I am a big girl. I live for *** not daddy.. I have the same relationship as before. :|
What I Want or Feel
My parents don't care about my talents if it's something they don't have, like being a girl like my mom but with traits from my dad..
Well
Everyone always said I was really good. Why do you all think you are good? So it's forever for Bella and Ellen??
So what?
So what? Bella is privately beating a fish at me?
Let me just say I didn't start anything with Ellen.
Let me just say I didn't start anything with Ellen.
Wa?
Why does Bella get all her dreams come true? I can feel the rain falling from here. Uh, now, I don't know what I was trying to say.
I looked at her picture and she is a defiant person. Guess she covers up sometimes. She looked absolutely ecstatic and out of control emotionally. She darted a lotta hate at me just so I could talk @ it, but her joy is real.
I am happy Bella gets her dream to come true, but aren't you jealous? Why does Ellen just like her? I did want her to focus on 1 daughter, and she comes from a good background. Her sister looks almost like her but isn't famous, so that made me wonder.
I get the feeling no one wants to talk @ it, so I will alone.
Usually, I don't have to see it, but that's all that's happening. It's so much better for people her age. I know she acted mean to me cuz she likes me and doesn't want me to feel jealous and like it's okay to be upset. Also, let's ask why Ellen treats Bella the best. Anyone want in with me? I do do that.. This is all torturing me @ having to be with someone else when I see Ellen. It's not really torture, but it's made to feel that way. You can't ask Ellen to like you, she likes you or she doesn't. I think it's just an age thing. It's a pretty big thing. See, I never really get Ellen. What a liar though with all that hurt directed at me, how disgusting. I'm not talking to her in saying this nor do I expect her nor anyone to read it. I'm just putting myself|this out there.
I looked at her picture and she is a defiant person. Guess she covers up sometimes. She looked absolutely ecstatic and out of control emotionally. She darted a lotta hate at me just so I could talk @ it, but her joy is real.
I am happy Bella gets her dream to come true, but aren't you jealous? Why does Ellen just like her? I did want her to focus on 1 daughter, and she comes from a good background. Her sister looks almost like her but isn't famous, so that made me wonder.
I get the feeling no one wants to talk @ it, so I will alone.
Usually, I don't have to see it, but that's all that's happening. It's so much better for people her age. I know she acted mean to me cuz she likes me and doesn't want me to feel jealous and like it's okay to be upset. Also, let's ask why Ellen treats Bella the best. Anyone want in with me? I do do that.. This is all torturing me @ having to be with someone else when I see Ellen. It's not really torture, but it's made to feel that way. You can't ask Ellen to like you, she likes you or she doesn't. I think it's just an age thing. It's a pretty big thing. See, I never really get Ellen. What a liar though with all that hurt directed at me, how disgusting. I'm not talking to her in saying this nor do I expect her nor anyone to read it. I'm just putting myself|this out there.
OOO KAYY
I already said I was okay with Bella with Ellen but that it just makes me jealous and guilty-feeling.
Well
Bella is perfect. She is the best. She is Ellen's only daughter. I just don't like what emits from the show with a relief that I am too old to be her daughter.
I'll try.
Bella has darker features than Ellen but is so beautiful..
You shoulda seen her dark blue eyes! She dresses like a wh***! LOL kidding around okay?? Look I'm a wh*** in other ways.. Sounds like a word other young people would use on others..
You shoulda seen her dark blue eyes! She dresses like a wh***! LOL kidding around okay?? Look I'm a wh*** in other ways.. Sounds like a word other young people would use on others..
Sounds like..
..something a director would say, "Oh, Christina is too exotic (or like dark.)"
Sorry, though, yes in a hurry or don't know what to say..
Sorry, though, yes in a hurry or don't know what to say..
Well..
..Ellen, hope you really like Bella.. she's a bit coy and has dark dark eyes. Her hair is brown and so colored.
Question
So, Ellen has to pretend she has a baby, like we weren't good enough. Why does age have to kill someone else?
Well, Okay
Well, Ellen, I guess I'll just say you're ^ready^ for Bella from me.
I know you wanna seem and be nice and still also want to remember me, so I'll say I'm happy for it but hope your other fans find their chance~
I know you wanna seem and be nice and still also want to remember me, so I'll say I'm happy for it but hope your other fans find their chance~
A Doofus
So, again, I'm really sorry @ what I said but don't want to go back and erase it so people know it was up. I didn't mean it in a bad way. It just was a word choice of something I wanted to say. I saw something like it in the show, too. I went back to show my dad, but I ended up showing him the part where I was.
Ironing Today
and probably tomorrow and the next day and so forth, most of the week.. what shall it be "Ghost Adventures?"
What I Meant
Was I hoped you'd know that the difference between Chloe S. and Ellen is that there's a part of them that probably doesn't happen now. I feel they want ot k*** me, though that isn't a nice thing to think. I mean, I thought it was just Ellen and the teens, but I guess it's Chloe, too.
And..
..because I explained myself I was able to make a criticism and prediction of the futu' (future!)
Question
So, you have to find out, which person accidentally thinks Ellen is something inappropriate.. would that prove her theories are all wrong, like being mean cuz she has to and think no one will say no? I guess I latched onto another personality like her however they both have their shallow side waiting to come out. :( What can I say? Anyway.. Ellen would have said that, let's move along, I don't find them what they think they have wrong. :|
Making People Wonder..
Some people don't agree to treat me normally, and they wonder why I'm not talking to them maybe.
Questionable Things
So, my aunt cowers before others but to me is questionable but maybe just trying to help. Bosses over me.
Evidence..
Before I said "oh no" when my dad came home cuz my hw wasn't done so we had no time together, my mom and maybe dad started acting bossy and telling me I'm complaining when I was just talking, maybe wanting to feel smarter and thinking of advanced things.
Problem
When I am nice to others or kids or babies, howcome that's not enough? You do nothing for them. You just take care of their poop. And I was 5 when my brother was born. You take away from the youngest. No one ever gets what they need. Adults do that. They don't make themselvse ugly.
IMDb - The Soapbox
How do you feel @ idealizing..
..kids born just in 1985 as ^wrong^? to make kids born in 1991 and 1997 look better? and leaving responsibilities up for the oldest young people?
Problem
Why is Ellen gonna worry on her show and misinterpret what I said.. and I feel on edge.. @ how she has poor or shallow speaking skills? A public speaker need not be eloquent.
Problem
If people like Ellen are off-limits to me for no reason should just be the same to everyone else in the competition.
Still Sane
Even though I'm so excited for this series, which probably is not that long, I still feel my life is not rooted in it.
Different Lives
Ever since I moved to Orlando, my parents acted like my life wasn't as good. Now, I'm in a support group but supposed to look up volunteer work which will allow me to get help in finding a job.
Well
So, you know Bella always seems to think it's @ her, so what's wrong @ me? Bella does that all the time. Her pictures look rebellious and I'm tired of Bella with outgrown bangs
IMDb - The Soapbox
Young Star Bella Thorne likes Ellen DeGeneres
They are doing all crazy things to make a big deal out of it.
She thinks she is punishing me by having attention go to her since I'm 1/2 her age, but Bella Thorne is like a thorn in my side. I was nice to her, and she decided I was bad and did something in her presence and did something else she's probably not supposed to do, too.
She treats Bella in a way I'd have liked because of her younger age, as well, but I don't really want that and do not feel like forgiving her. What I mean by that is I won't also make her take it back or something. I just won't acknowledge anything different in a way, and anyway things are the same.
People are like going eunuch @ Bella and wanting me to be a way I don't want to be for her. It's making me feel like I can't do good unless it's being a way I don't want to be for Bella. I want to be cool like her, but I like being cool like I've been more.
Well, here Bella is.. born @ 1997 http://goo.gl/kiWUA0
She thinks she is punishing me by having attention go to her since I'm 1/2 her age, but Bella Thorne is like a thorn in my side. I was nice to her, and she decided I was bad and did something in her presence and did something else she's probably not supposed to do, too.
She treats Bella in a way I'd have liked because of her younger age, as well, but I don't really want that and do not feel like forgiving her. What I mean by that is I won't also make her take it back or something. I just won't acknowledge anything different in a way, and anyway things are the same.
People are like going eunuch @ Bella and wanting me to be a way I don't want to be for her. It's making me feel like I can't do good unless it's being a way I don't want to be for Bella. I want to be cool like her, but I like being cool like I've been more.
Well, here Bella is.. born @ 1997 http://goo.gl/kiWUA0
And no..
..I don't need to do anything for a brat in order to get anything from anyone else. I already did something. You just want me to not feel good. You can't make something outta your sick mistake. Who are you? Why do you sound like Kate Bush, who likes to hide unfortunately actually like a stick in the mud.
Problem
They want me to be a way I don't want, like an older lady like some older girls do, -for- Bella like I'm on the side. Why do that for Bella? I can already feel it and I want it off. I'm just feeling crazy all the time with people monitoring me on camera.
Oscar Prep
Prep for Ellen @ Oscars
She thinks Bella's her new ^bottle baby^ and is worried @ the press. How lame that would be if someone thought that @ me.
She thinks Bella's her new ^bottle baby^ and is worried @ the press. How lame that would be if someone thought that @ me.
Funny
Bella seems to jump in less than I would. They apparently are putting on an act like they get nothing. Those girls born @ 1997-9.
A Bad Feeling
I have the feeling Bella does not want me happy. She has Ellen's priority, what more does she want!?
Sunday, February 23, 2014
More
They are following my aunt's tactic of doing 1 more thing. These cups look like copying my future interest.
Ha ha ha
I was thinking.. maybe like I said before it fit in to say Bella did want Ellen for prestige. They think 1 person has to be crucified as the top.
Problem
Now the female sack, my dad was pumping the garbage. I really do not accept this. Because now I am dealing with a feeling. It's crazy and hard. I didn't have any garbage.
IMDb - The Soapobx
Parents aren't even right.
So, I got wind Johnny Depp wants to discipline us for not watching everything he's in. I asked my dad to rent his last movie. I had a reason, but people like him and Ellen think they live by a different set of rules than people from up north I think..and think when we pull 1 that it was an insult. I was actually in the mental hospital when it came out I think. I knew I could always watch it. It seemed more interesting not to watch it, but apparently they put a lot into it.
I mean I know they would. I probably was upset after the hospital, too.. Just tell me what you want? I'd probably do it if you could. I guess I just keep putting it off, too.
So, I got wind Johnny Depp wants to discipline us for not watching everything he's in. I asked my dad to rent his last movie. I had a reason, but people like him and Ellen think they live by a different set of rules than people from up north I think..and think when we pull 1 that it was an insult. I was actually in the mental hospital when it came out I think. I knew I could always watch it. It seemed more interesting not to watch it, but apparently they put a lot into it.
I mean I know they would. I probably was upset after the hospital, too.. Just tell me what you want? I'd probably do it if you could. I guess I just keep putting it off, too.
Upset
Supposedly, they want people to help me then it's over. I'm not a criminal. I will not allow someone to take my place.
Oh
Keep her nose like that and I'll do my own.
I mean she has a good nose but doesn't seem to respond to any other cuz she's so rich and fancy. :)
I mean she has a good nose but doesn't seem to respond to any other cuz she's so rich and fancy. :)
Well
Ellen, you aren't much without a nose. That's just the fact. I love you and do not want to insult you, but I used to have a more symmetrical nose. I guess we all can only give so much.
Also
What do you think of her baby nose? Not small. Baby Ellen. Ellen has a certain kind of nose that isn't specific and probably not as satisfying. I love her nose, though, but why do we have to baby it? I don't wanna. I'm not talking to Ellen. I'm talking to you. What do you think? Why do I have to have the stupid nose and her the precious nose?
A Good Talker
Ellen is a good talker, just not very talkative. She has a lot of silent spaces for listening. What about teens that just go on and on? I guess that lots of people who talk aren't famous.
I must not have been too blunt. I can't even find it where.
I must not have been too blunt. I can't even find it where.
Why..
..she just has a disinterest, can't think of the word.. passive. She doesn't have anyone to turn on to but me.
Well, that's what it is!
We analyzed Ellen. She is stuck in the mud. She drags on. She's not eager to make anyone feel good. She can easily afford to give them the cars.
Another joke..
Another joke..
So
Bella quit being mean to me if you can control deliberate action. You go off to Johnny Depp if you so chose. Just enjoy Ellen and don't waste your anger on me.
I feel..
..Ellen wants me to use Bella, but Bella is getting everything. Not saying this to Ellen, but I will not forgive her. About what? I just mean it's unfair Bella is so comfortable. I don't mean anything against her, but she snaps at me a lot and I used to care.
A Poym (A Poem)
I shouldn't care but I am sad. Why does Ellen have to be her dad?
I saw Bella thinking she's from Jax
Laughing and crying in [her new] mother's lap
I saw Bella thinking she's from Jax
Laughing and crying in [her new] mother's lap
Question
How does Bella stay out of trouble with Ellen? She doesn't. Well, what could I do? Ellen takes from me if a thought pops through my head. Then I was cursing @ the noises. I felt that I was in danger with people so only did like my dad maybe mom but like in *beep* and stuff so you didn't see it tho I dunno. I was just really hurt, as my parents do to me. I have to leave when they do that.
I was just thinking @ how Bella just accepts the happiness from Ellen, but what if Ellen lashed out, which she has in a way. Bella is happy with her but was mean to me and seemed to have lost something in doing so, unfortunately tho that's how adults can be from where her home is.
Speaking of which, what about the N word thing ruining it with Ellen before your thing @ my cursing on my own blog?
I was just thinking @ how Bella just accepts the happiness from Ellen, but what if Ellen lashed out, which she has in a way. Bella is happy with her but was mean to me and seemed to have lost something in doing so, unfortunately tho that's how adults can be from where her home is.
Speaking of which, what about the N word thing ruining it with Ellen before your thing @ my cursing on my own blog?
^Examples^
What do you think @ using younger kids to tease older kids but not being nice to them? Yes, Ellen made me think of it or it was already in my head.
Cute
Chloe S. is serious as a person..however we grew up eating..and wants to dedicate her life to the flaws of kids in a way.. If we can't fix it, may as well move on. I felt it personally, too, though, and it just makes me sad anyone would care @ me, but my parents just want to hurt me and so do lots of people I see. They are good people, but I do go insane and have to figure it out as a mistake. She was talking @ the flaws of girls in Hollywood. She thinks she's like everyone else in dedicating herself to the flaws that is my generation and myself.
I can already feel it coming.
I can already feel it coming. I'm into Chloe S. and Helena Bonham Carter is finding that taking all of Tim Burton's attention isn't working. She's younger, though, or the same age.
Leave..
You all think my friends are so good for being mean to me. Well, I shall leave and you shan't get me.
Not the It Girl
May as well not shove me in other people's faces, cuz I only do the right thing and I talk about feelings and gossip. I may get my chance if you don't ruin it. In something good.
Boston in the Dirt Still
Everything seems to go with my friends. Chloe S. designed dresses and dressed in like an old prarie dress at age 23. My friend from Boston was big on being in the dirt, too.
I must let you know I grew out of that ^hiatus^.
I must let you know I grew out of that ^hiatus^.
Don't get me wrong.
I was just wondering why. It is babyish. Guess I should stop there. Sometimes, people talk too much. They don't even know if there will be anything left to talk about later.
Stupid Stupid
Why do you baby stupider people? Not saying it @ anyone. Is being babied a good thing? Wow. Wonder how this works. Anyone interested? I just wanted to know about not listening to smart people, even if they are young. You know what you're doing or you don't. But you know.
Punching
We all just sit her and calculate her pleasure. What do her Tweets do for her?
Does the word "pleasure" insult you?
Does the word "pleasure" insult you?
So..
Can anyone tell me why Ellen is silently strict? She doesn't ever talk @ feelings. Well, that's what my talk show will be based on, in fact.
So?
Why shouldn't we talk @ Ellen? She doesn't say much actually. She's only on Twitter and Tweets on Facebook. Who wants to feel that a 55 year old is a baby to them?
Do I need to put a ban on my blog? How? I don't have the technology.
Do I need to put a ban on my blog? How? I don't have the technology.
Oh, yes.
I said she was emotionally smart. She isn't adept online with a displayed cruel sense of humor to the merciless.
Problem
What if I think I can say what I want and you do something to punish me like I'm a kid and you tell me what to do.. I can't even make a point about a problem.
Taalk!
I said something @ Ellen not knowing how to talk, but I can't find it. She's always like the baby.
What I Rilly Rilly Wan'
I feel I was made for people to think I want what I don't want..compared to what's done with others my own age.
I was wondering..
So, I just watched a video of Sarah Brightman in concert. Haven't seen anyone else following along. It's fun but makes me bewildered. I am also looking up other stuff as we speak and need to clean my room and settle down, will want to watch more later, you can see the red videos with "The Phantom of the Opera!"
All There Is in Life
Don't you wanna see a girl born in 1991 go hysterical over ^the bottle^? That's why I have a trash family? No. We're just different, have something you want.
Why do older kids seem like a tool, those born in the 1970s? When did they really experience it all? They are so there for us kids with parents born after 1950.
Why do older kids seem like a tool, those born in the 1970s? When did they really experience it all? They are so there for us kids with parents born after 1950.
The Youngest White European
I hereby decree my cousin wants to think she wants to be more European and put on a display as the youngest though she doesn't communicate much in front of me.
What I WANT
What's all this right and left Christina I wasn't from a farm! Well, I wanted a neat farm!
Cont.
My mom tried to hurt my *** sacks and my dad didn't at 1 point, too. Don't remember all details. Why does something always happen when I eat? Orlando is stale. I should not stick out. Also, it might be for Ellen, thinking my twitching is not okay because it's about me and not about her. How does that make sense? She lets Bella do that. Maybe, if she does that all the good people are really bad!
Hurt
My parents were bothering me cuz they are scared of Johnny Depp and me not watching "The Lone Ranger" cuz I was in the hospital. I just didn't get around to renting it. I never get around to a lot of things. My mom even tried to o***** my male part. It is hard to hold it and I feel a pulse. I will not accept any punishment from anyone, even if I k*** someone. Other people would still love me.
Talking
So, if Ellen doesn't talk to me, I mean why would I have to talk to someone else? I need someone to really talk to which has nothing to do with her.
My Wish
That I could take the modeling offer from Miami where they'd let me exercise and eventually infiltrate me into movies. My only hope now is Adventure films.
How I Feel
I don't feel spechal anymore. I was used, like Johnny Depp.
You know, it's a good thing, but maybe you won't like that things are for the teens now. They are not as tested.
You know, it's a good thing, but maybe you won't like that things are for the teens now. They are not as tested.
Messed Up
Well, now Ellen is apparently moving on to bigger and better things. She keeps tearing people apart.
Age
I also find Bella Thorne acts like she's Ellen DeGeneres to other teens, but she's not. Like she's kinda controlling and thinks we have to make our Twitter after her.
She's not cuz she's not trying to be that way, in a way I mean. It's not that she can't if she wants to. ?: I just was wondering @ how she acts like we're doing something wrong..
She's not cuz she's not trying to be that way, in a way I mean. It's not that she can't if she wants to. ?: I just was wondering @ how she acts like we're doing something wrong..
My Case in Point
I have the right to complain. Things aren't as much about me with Bella around, and it isn't healthy. May as well not watch Ellen, in that case.
Problem
I think people are playing with me, like I wanted pizza today and we're also having something else out, but I wanted some more American food. We usually eat out cheap @ Costco sometimes on weekends and my dad just likes to get pizza and has sometimes hot dogs, so. And there was no movie I wanted to see. We don't go to church for a certain reason but would if we could. I think if there's soemthing wrong with the b**** there's something wrong with the pup. Life is not a mathematical formula. I just feel things strike me as a punishment or something unnecessarily bad I hope.
Conclusion
Pennsylvanians today are stuck up and phony. Why so funny?.. That's a personal reason, but there is a reason. They just want to know you didn't make it, but if they attack you then they are wrong. I did not attack them.
Why did I say that? They are very irritating or hard to understand completely. It was supposed to be a funny joke that was true. Actually, to uphold their dignity, I happened to have to go there and I found it very nice, thought of Jackie Evancho then before we went to her concert.
When they come out in public, these sorta people are like.. "hi." "Hi." How am I supposed to understand what it's like to be from there? I can kinda see.
Why did I say that? They are very irritating or hard to understand completely. It was supposed to be a funny joke that was true. Actually, to uphold their dignity, I happened to have to go there and I found it very nice, thought of Jackie Evancho then before we went to her concert.
When they come out in public, these sorta people are like.. "hi." "Hi." How am I supposed to understand what it's like to be from there? I can kinda see.
What's Obvious
I make it sound like I deserve more than I should accept. What if I said Portia is spoiled?
A Success
*gum comes out of factory machine*
I know Ellen is just mad for any turmoil, so that's why she's got Bella - because the world always was wrong to me and made it impossible to succeed at all in a way.
I know Ellen is just mad for any turmoil, so that's why she's got Bella - because the world always was wrong to me and made it impossible to succeed at all in a way.
Eureka!
I realized what was wrong. Bella does not want to see me as in any way at all that exists the good 1. Like the goody-good with Ellen. Maybe, in some way she'd have to act like that's what she thinks. You know, she's far from being flawed as a schizo, definitely not, why would Ellen like her? (Yes, I was called that here.)
Why I Said That
I'm back.. Well, I imagined Ellen felt bad prostrating herself for Bella and insulting me by pushing me away as a display.
IMHO (In My Humble Opinion)
I think Bella is not as big and close a fan as I am. She just wonders if she gets "what" she wants that's prestigious. Most people encourage my following Ellen.
Gossip
Bella is an outlandish girl on the inside who reprimands those older than her such as myself and hooks onto people no one is allowed to hook onto. If someone gets close as the prize, she wants in. She's really just a sweet girl soaking in the attention, but she can't seem to stop being mean at the same time. I am not here to be the robot. I would have to figure out what's up by and by more.
- Not? - Being Mad
If I'm mad @ someone I don't do anything but can't seem to be able to actually ignore them. It would hurt them I found so I stopped.
Funny
Why does she need to hurt me? I'm not just another person. What she did was she pretty much dug into my personal profiled information online.
O Kay !
I just imagined Ellen nodding off like when she was a baby at all the suggestions I made at her. I just posted Ellen does such and such, not, "Stop it, Ellen." Why? Because not only does she have a reason but it concerns me to a certain degree.
Cutting a Relationship
Do you think people who cut a relationship have a ^problem^? They must not be big on being online, like having a public blog and talking things out, though some people are very pushy shovy in chat rooms. These people think talking is something people Tweet out in small quantities.
Being in Trouble
People put you in more trouble for being younger? So they go by not just your action but "what" you are?
TV
Ellen Outline
Monday
Tim Allen
June 13, 1953 in Denver, Colorado, USA
Tuesday
Minnie Driver
Birth Place: London, England
Ethnicity: English, some Scottish
January 31, 1970
Wednesday
Jimmy Kimmel
Born: November 13, 1967 (age 46), Mill Basin, New York City, NYAllison Williams
April 15, 1988
Connecticut
*Irish, some German (father)
*English (mother)
Thursday
Matthew David McConaughey
Uvalde, TX
Birth Date: November 4, 1969
Ethnicity: English, Scottish, Swedish, German, Irish
Taye Diggs
Birth Date: January 2, 1971
Newark, NJ
James Blunt
22 February 1974
English
Friday
Leonardo DiCaprio
Birth Place: Los Angeles, California, USA
Date of Birth: November 11, 1974
Ethnicity:
*Italian, German (father)
*German, Russian (mother)
Courtney Cox
Birthplace: Birmingham, Alabama, U.S.
Date of Birth: June 15, 1964
Sara Bareilles
Place of Birth: Eureka, California
Date of Birth: December 7, 1979
Ethnicity:
*37.5% Italian (including Swiss-Italian)
*37.5% Portuguese
*12.5% French
*12.5% English and German
Monday
Tim Allen
June 13, 1953 in Denver, Colorado, USA
Tuesday
Minnie Driver
Birth Place: London, England
Ethnicity: English, some Scottish
January 31, 1970
Wednesday
Jimmy Kimmel
Born: November 13, 1967 (age 46), Mill Basin, New York City, NYAllison Williams
April 15, 1988
Connecticut
*Irish, some German (father)
*English (mother)
Thursday
Matthew David McConaughey
Uvalde, TX
Birth Date: November 4, 1969
Ethnicity: English, Scottish, Swedish, German, Irish
Taye Diggs
Birth Date: January 2, 1971
Newark, NJ
James Blunt
22 February 1974
English
Friday
Leonardo DiCaprio
Birth Place: Los Angeles, California, USA
Date of Birth: November 11, 1974
Ethnicity:
*Italian, German (father)
*German, Russian (mother)
Courtney Cox
Birthplace: Birmingham, Alabama, U.S.
Date of Birth: June 15, 1964
Sara Bareilles
Place of Birth: Eureka, California
Date of Birth: December 7, 1979
Ethnicity:
*37.5% Italian (including Swiss-Italian)
*37.5% Portuguese
*12.5% French
*12.5% English and German
So
Yea, sorry @ yesterday. Usually, I wouldn't do anything but was trying to be uppity. I don't really agree that I am Asian or that it should be said. I don't know why you said it, but it's probably okay.. Sometimes or usually now, I don't really care, I also try to ignore things. I did notice that it's just something to say instead of something social, so I dunno, I mean I wouldn't do it to someone else. I would bring up Asian depending on ^how it is^.
Saturday, February 22, 2014
You know..
..@ those friends, wonder I should have forgotten @ them, of course. So sad. Won't answer. Still something in my life, though.
Problem
My mom went out to sit by my dad and he's acting like making me happy is bad as though I did something but didn't. Why does Ellen do this? We are not niggers.
Well, sorry.
You caught me at a bad moment.. You know I am not well. If you must say I am Asian, okay, but like I thought that stimulated me, it does, I don't feel it, but it does. You can talk about it. Don't be afraid. I tried to be like my dad racially. I am a Eurasian!!!! D;
What I Said
"Why is everything Sarah Brightman now? Is she so precious she believes she has to k*** me?"
That's just a simple way of putting it. I meant, is it precious she thinks she'd want to hurt me knowing I exist? Is that the English thing? Being precious about their protocols and things we didn't get??
That's just a simple way of putting it. I meant, is it precious she thinks she'd want to hurt me knowing I exist? Is that the English thing? Being precious about their protocols and things we didn't get??
Question
Does Bella feel what Ellen does for her? Does she feel that much that she gets ^the bottle^? Why do we care about people like this? I thought something in the world would be about me and maybe for some people to leave me alone and let me blog. I do not mean I do not want people to never read anything I say, I don't even know now what it would be like if things were normal. I don't want to be made fun of, but I mean there would be a reason for someone not to really know what I said if they had my blog. It's not intersting, so I mean, they aren't missing much other than what has to do with them, like Bella and ^the bottle^.
It's too bad.
We exist. We don't get ^the bottle.^ You are a mistake. (Just poking fun but not meaning anyone.)
What is it?
You just wanted to say I was Asian in a creative way? Oh, I think I like European. My whole life I just act European. I am not disgusting.. I take what I know @ Chinese and apply it to the strengths it fills with European. I don't think Chinese, I don't feel Chinese. I was made to feel that way for no reason. Now who did it must cut it out. I was treated badly 1st by anyone. This is not a request. :]
And if you are into something Asian, just say it's a beautiful mystic place full of lovely black-haired, fair-skinned Mongoloids. Mysterious, like Japan.
And if you are into something Asian, just say it's a beautiful mystic place full of lovely black-haired, fair-skinned Mongoloids. Mysterious, like Japan.
You know what my parents did..
..they acted like Sarah Brightman called me Asian for her own convenience. All I can say now is that I'm not. I'm pretty forceful, too.. My dad did at his convenience, as well. No one dare ever say I'm nigger or Asian just to say. If that means bye, this thing isn't okay. I don't care if you don't do anything for me, but I'm not to be insulted. Sometimes, it is okay, though, but my dad did something and I was mainly mad at him- I didn't do anything, but my mom kept pushing, and that wasn't okay. I just heard it again.. I don't take this random past thing. You were to forget @ the past. Everyone always used to say that.
You know what..
I'm finding more attractive people, but we should find people who really like talk to Ellen in their heads.
I don't like..
"..does it matter?"
But you don't have to change for what I just said necessarily in every way..
But you don't have to change for what I just said necessarily in every way..
Do you know anyone
who deserves things in the way I do?
I don't really care, but you have to make me.
I don't really care, but you have to make me.
What She's Doing
Like, she usually is my friend online but instead the feelings all go to Bella.. that's what I'm doing. I don't mind not getting anything, but I am interested in the politics of this.
Whattaya Think?
Is Ellen acting a bit wacked online? I mean it in the best possible way. Like she acts like, "Ohhh" with a weird smile like you did something. What? I'm not all mad now. I'll try to stop talking @ Bella, but sometimes I have an improvement. So..are we supposed to talk @ Bella? I just see her getting it just because she's here and like we don't matter. I am happy for her and in no way am saying no. I just feel insulted with her as a separate thing. No hard feelings, I am just thinking @ the pain Ellen inflicts by babying the youngest. Oh, I had a baby in 1997, I'm 50 years old blah blah blah blah blah, not talking to anyone in particular, though..! "Why can't just anyone have it?" says Helena Bonham Carter. And why does Bella look so much like Helena Bonham Carter and Sharon Osbourne who are English Jews? F.Y.I. not exactly a Jew, not a full Jew. Also, once I asked my dad to look at my green eyes in the mirror, and he told me to text my mom as I lay down and my eyes feel like I have to be careful.. Ellen is being pleasured dipping in leaving these annoying, tacky, g** *clues* of hers like she's on "Blue's Clues" as a young child.
Well
I've decided Ellen doesn't know how to talk. I do, even though I'm 1/2 Chinese. I have hardly any Anglo blood.
Ehem.
Bella shows off her dark blue eyes, period. Looks like mine as a baby, but now mine are light brown in the light, whereas Bella's are deep blue. Actually light green mine.
Problem
Ellen is acting like I as a person am temporary and Bella is not.. I saw her do that in a picture just for the fun of it. She just lets the time go by it seems, too, if you know what I mean. Why would anyone do that just for Bella? What did she do? You're not busy clicking through her past to make judgements of lies. This isn't necessarily something I'm directing @ Ellen but for other people to read and understand, of course I don't mean it in a harsh bad way.
Upset
Renee Fleming suddenly stopped posting on Twitter.. I was saying stuff she did on there, probably shoulda just staye don Blogger.
Wow, everything is going crazy.
Wow, everything is going crazy.
Int'r'sting
The Early Childhood programs come in 1 for school, 1 for hands on games, and 3 is called a type of Early Childhood Careers.
So
I'm so sad @ talking @ Bella so sloppily but want to know what's going on. I was trying to boil it down, I guess.
Problem
My aunts violently think I must be like my dad, no style in a way like me but has 1 of his own.
Problem
People accepted since I felt bad that Ellen is too old to be my mom. That's an insult, and they felt the same @ mine. I will not do this for anyone..
It's gotten to me.
Some weird glitch on my computer or some thing my parents do always seems to happen.. like for a reason.
No one has anything to say to me.
I just hear them saying the worst thing anyone could think. Like the people experimenting on me.
Something That Might Not Need to Be Said
Well, Bella, something else I have that you want probably is Blogger. It's so nifty and fun really. It should be used for making happy posts.
I'll go back and analyze some of my writing.
Also, I just wanna talk @ giving more attention to teenagers today, in general.
Well, I explain what I said in the 1st post.
"always crunching in Bella for no reason. This is not for Bella to talk about"
That might sound rude, but I have strong doubts that Bella cares @ Ellen DeGeneres, as rude as I think it is unfortunately..
"She just planted noises in my room all day"
Yes, I was trapped in my room with crazy noises and still am. It bothered me greatly, and I could not seem to escape except by going to school, where I got planned to be kicked out for something.
"I think they're talking to Bella through her mom"
I dunno, I wouldn't care if I were her, but I guess it's a big day, someone "important" like Ellen.
"Who cares @ Bella"
I've explained this phrase, as well, does not mean to stop caring @ her just asking why all the fuss against me.
@ Ellen "Maybe she doies"
I was just concerned..
My caps. I was just saying Bella IS being used as a punishment. I had my Twitter slimmed down to a few and Bella started to get more attention and me not enough. I don't think I should expect any, though, not from Ellen the famed.
Well, there it all is. I was attacked with bipolar threats @ my writing. See, it all was ballpark.. Sorry, though, wish I just went to bed. I didn't watch the show, yet, neither. Uh, and I have that group Monday, but a birthday party. Don't even have a card nor money to buy 1. On top of that, my Gramma had a stroke maybe. She's only 83.. You know what, because I was upset at a certain person it so pretended to seem, now no one is ever nice to me and something else, my mom is always mean. Making me uncomfortable each and every day. Acting like I have a problem and am a case.
Also, I just wanna talk @ giving more attention to teenagers today, in general.
Well, I explain what I said in the 1st post.
"always crunching in Bella for no reason. This is not for Bella to talk about"
That might sound rude, but I have strong doubts that Bella cares @ Ellen DeGeneres, as rude as I think it is unfortunately..
"She just planted noises in my room all day"
Yes, I was trapped in my room with crazy noises and still am. It bothered me greatly, and I could not seem to escape except by going to school, where I got planned to be kicked out for something.
"I think they're talking to Bella through her mom"
I dunno, I wouldn't care if I were her, but I guess it's a big day, someone "important" like Ellen.
"Who cares @ Bella"
I've explained this phrase, as well, does not mean to stop caring @ her just asking why all the fuss against me.
@ Ellen "Maybe she doies"
I was just concerned..
My caps. I was just saying Bella IS being used as a punishment. I had my Twitter slimmed down to a few and Bella started to get more attention and me not enough. I don't think I should expect any, though, not from Ellen the famed.
Well, there it all is. I was attacked with bipolar threats @ my writing. See, it all was ballpark.. Sorry, though, wish I just went to bed. I didn't watch the show, yet, neither. Uh, and I have that group Monday, but a birthday party. Don't even have a card nor money to buy 1. On top of that, my Gramma had a stroke maybe. She's only 83.. You know what, because I was upset at a certain person it so pretended to seem, now no one is ever nice to me and something else, my mom is always mean. Making me uncomfortable each and every day. Acting like I have a problem and am a case.
I feel..
..Ellen has gone crazy and is chiming in Bella for some reason. Something came up, not exactly remembering it.
Wondering
Aren't I supposed to talk @ how I feel @ if Bella is in my life more for some reason? She already was a #1 being followed.
I mean that's really what you're supposed to do, but maybe it could have been avoided if I Went to bed.
I'm glad you care @ Bella, but I feel it's a punishment I'm not so close to Ellen when I go on Twitter and it's weird, a punishment?? That's okay if that's what she wants. I just feel sad @ it. Happy @ Bella, though.
I mean that's really what you're supposed to do, but maybe it could have been avoided if I Went to bed.
I'm glad you care @ Bella, but I feel it's a punishment I'm not so close to Ellen when I go on Twitter and it's weird, a punishment?? That's okay if that's what she wants. I just feel sad @ it. Happy @ Bella, though.
Problem
I'm getting a threatning, rather nasty attitude from th experimenters and trying to go to bed.
Problem
I haven't showered so didn't get in bed, but I had to m.. twice @ this. I've never done that. I keep getting secret messages alone.
More
This isn't my idea of fun. I feel I'm having a wrong kind of surgery. I am fine. Quit ruining my life. Period.
And your dad thinks he has a bright 97 kid now.
And your dad thinks he has a bright 97 kid now.
Problem
They're making suggestions to me and I can't just keep pushing it.
All the times people were mean to me people say I deserve.
All the times people were mean to me people say I deserve.
Thanks
JD I feel so threatened about my own personal well-being. If you did it for me, I want my sound of mind. I'm not shit.
So
You want Bella to be me? Everything just goes to Bella and no one else? Why do I have to act like I have anything? I don't feel good anymore. Bella is getting more than she can chew. Why can't I join in and complain like everyone else?
Problem
The experimenter told me this English boy I care about imprinted had thick hypnotic lines in his eyeballs.
I talk. Okay? How many times do I have to post this!
Also, I have a reminder. It's on the task bar or something. In a different browser. Hey what are you talking about all now why did you load the page twice in a row too etc.? WHAT IS GOING ON. NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO IT COMES OFF AS AN INSULT.
I talk. Okay? How many times do I have to post this!
Also, I have a reminder. It's on the task bar or something. In a different browser. Hey what are you talking about all now why did you load the page twice in a row too etc.? WHAT IS GOING ON. NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO IT COMES OFF AS AN INSULT.
PROBLEM
I did not insult Ellen, she insulted me. Sure, she does a lot, but she also does a lotta bad.
WHAT DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH BELLA!!!!
Just forget all this? No, she thinks I insulted her. She is the 1 who rejects me. I mean she thinks I was waiting for something from the past that wasn't there, like no I wasn't nice I don't pass GO.
WHAT DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH BELLA!!!!
Just forget all this? No, she thinks I insulted her. She is the 1 who rejects me. I mean she thinks I was waiting for something from the past that wasn't there, like no I wasn't nice I don't pass GO.
BAH
This is too depressing and it isn't true. But yes I got a downer. People ask why you. I ask why who.
This
is what's normal. You talk about something, something important you don't yet understand. It's even how things work when no one else solves them. This was mostly unnecessary, I was just mad, like stomping my feet, but I must say I am sad for some reason I don't feel as much of Ellen. It means she's tired of me, when I've just been in misery for no reason.
I could stop, but I guess I'm not feeling that way about time. I could just say less, but I didn't really know what to say. What is Bella really doing, I must ask? She is just feeling good and not talking to me but involved in me all the time online.
I could stop, but I guess I'm not feeling that way about time. I could just say less, but I didn't really know what to say. What is Bella really doing, I must ask? She is just feeling good and not talking to me but involved in me all the time online.
Problem
So what is this another punishment? I'm watching this show every day and this is what happens? Where are all the other watchers, not online?
Let's just say I fend for myself, no Ellen there.. well, she wants to say she's there, and she's there, but in a way she's not there, though that's not important.. It seems my day isn't full of fun and feeling. It was before Bella.
Let's just say I fend for myself, no Ellen there.. well, she wants to say she's there, and she's there, but in a way she's not there, though that's not important.. It seems my day isn't full of fun and feeling. It was before Bella.
Problem
Why am I hooked on Ellen in such a way with all the energy going to Bella?? ':[ I don't care.
Recovery
I am happy but don't feel Ellen. Never did exactly, but I'm not as feeling happy or anything. :|
Phrase
"Who cares @ Bella?" I just mean that we care @ her too much and not anyone else and that I am dumped. I can't even feel as well.
Apology
Sorry I was so mad, but you can go back and read what happened. I'm trying to sort out my thoughts and figure it out. All I can say is I could be more appropriate, except that some of what I said carried meaning.
Even if..
Even if it's wrong, Ellen is paying attention to Bella. Too much, like she doesn't care @ me, anymore. Maybe she doies, but I feel no affection. I care @ Ellen. Guess you do, too. Who cares @ Bella? What about all the other people from Fort Lauderdale? What's so special @ it? You should move there, possibly..then again maybe not. Not as much as some other people maybe, .. dunno what would happen do you?
What I Found
I don't feel Ellen anymore, but Bella does. Who cares @ Bella, though? She wasn't in this. I will find out what's wrong..
Well, Ellen might need a break. Maybe, this is inappropriate. Still, she insulted me, what I wanna talk about?
People are also making fun of me.
Well, Ellen might need a break. Maybe, this is inappropriate. Still, she insulted me, what I wanna talk about?
People are also making fun of me.
Problem
Ellen is the 1 who looks like she has a temper. Now what? I have to watch the show and she insults me online. I don't feel close to her. I also hit my head.
Problem
Ellen does spend undue time on me maybe, but I feel something is missing. I was happy to have Bella onboard, but now Ellen talks to her all the time. I don't feel I wanna talk to her anymore. I don't feel her presence. I feel like it's all @ Bella. Why do I have to have her in my life! She wasn't there before. I thought she was my friend, not my replacement. That just means I dunno I can't have her online it seems. W** is Bella doing?
There's no mystery.
It's like no Christina. What is going on? Should I just call it quits and say hey I really have no one maybe? I'm pretty lonely. I think they're talking to Bella through her mom.
cont.
Ellen is acting like that's a punishment I deserve, to lose her kindness and to have to think @ someone younger when talking to her. I don't deserve any punishment, and she has nothing to say online it seems, always crunching in Bella for no reason. This is not for Bella to talk about but me letting out what's wrong before I can figure it out without saying anything because it's so hard I know. Let me see if I can solve it from here? Bella is getting appropriate attention. Lots of it. What about the other poeple? I don't care if she's from where I'm from, she's still insulting me. She just planted noises in my room all day, as though I dream @ her. I understand, but I am not here to put toenail polish on anyone other than I do myself.. I am not saying no don't pay attention to her, but it depresses me each day that I think it's my age, too, and playing around punishing me. What makes Bella so young and special today compared to her?
Problem
It makes me sad that Bella is talking to Ellen. It's done in a way that's an insult to me and takes away time I had with Ellen, like she literally spends less time on me.
All I can say is if she did it normally, like judging from more people, I would not be sad.
... Bella was a friend, but now I think because of other people who are making me uncomfortable, I am losing communicating even through the experiment.
All I can say is if she did it normally, like judging from more people, I would not be sad.
... Bella was a friend, but now I think because of other people who are making me uncomfortable, I am losing communicating even through the experiment.
So
Is Ellen just putting on something looking for attention? Was I supposed to take that @ being from New Orleans? I know this sounds sarcastic, but it's not. Should I call it quits or no? She seems to always promise me something good in the end, but she keeps doing things like this.
Problem
So, it's apporpriate for the teens in her audience to feel?? but not I said the fly. Just don't want to like dip my toes in the water?
Friday, February 21, 2014
More News
Ellen: Here she is.
Here she isn't!
--
Ellen: Stands up and drags Christina onto the staage. Christina is caught up in the moment and reluctantly but happily sits down.
Ellen: So, you're 1/2 Chinese.
Christina: Why, thank you! *blushes*
Here she isn't!
--
Ellen: Stands up and drags Christina onto the staage. Christina is caught up in the moment and reluctantly but happily sits down.
Ellen: So, you're 1/2 Chinese.
Christina: Why, thank you! *blushes*
So
This is my blog. Let's see what if Ellen asked @ me being Chinese? "So, you're Chinese, bye." Or "So, you're Chinese." "Bye."
I have a question for Ellen if I'm allowed. Why do you think you have to act like you're doing something testy literally, like bad, just so someone can get the feel of it for pleasure, as though they have something and can hurt you?
I have a question for Ellen if I'm allowed. Why do you think you have to act like you're doing something testy literally, like bad, just so someone can get the feel of it for pleasure, as though they have something and can hurt you?
So
So, you're not in my life.
Ellen is in Bella's life and Portia's life.
I AM WHITE. BE GLAD. THAT'S ALL I HAVE TO SAY AND AM WAITING FOR LITERALLY A SORT OF "UNTAMED" REACTION AND NOT AN RESPONSE.
How is that rude? You're not Chinese. I don't have to be Chinese. I chose what I liked racially. I don't know why you can't go from there. I am sorry if anyone is offended, but I think if you're offended you're technically used to just tossing out the Chinese like a Holocaust.
Ellen is in Bella's life and Portia's life.
I AM WHITE. BE GLAD. THAT'S ALL I HAVE TO SAY AND AM WAITING FOR LITERALLY A SORT OF "UNTAMED" REACTION AND NOT AN RESPONSE.
How is that rude? You're not Chinese. I don't have to be Chinese. I chose what I liked racially. I don't know why you can't go from there. I am sorry if anyone is offended, but I think if you're offended you're technically used to just tossing out the Chinese like a Holocaust.
I know.
You all didn't tell us to blog so you don't have those Cindy Brady's all being responsible for how they hurt us.
What I'd Have Liked
If I was told by people to get a blog at 11 and 12. You could have done that instead of e-mail. AH!!! !!! !!! !!! AH !!! !!!
Problem
Ellen can't accept she isn't perfect. She punishes and then takes it back each time. What does she say? She'll act like 1 thing then go back and say she just did it for fun! Sounds like someone said her definition is to block older kids and welcome younger 1s. Important to say not to just toss her but to solve the public interest and your own personal problems. You can go by and say it didn't happen.
Problem
You don't have the right to single me out for stomping as I walk. SOMEONE WAS AFTER ME. THEY WERE GIVING SECRET MESSAGES. I COULDN'T LEAVE.
Problem
Now that WPB Zoo is interfering - ew! Trying to make this my friend? YOU ALL WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE!!! THIS IS MY LIFE!
Problem
Now the Ft Lauderdale Police are commenting and said birthday, Boston.. ':0 They won't leave me alone! So what? I can do that if I like.
Problem
They are threatening me by the week as I speak! A THREAT. I can make my own decisions. I don't really care that I did that.
Should I feel bad?
@ stomping my feet @ Disney? I should have walked away but forgot. I was in a fury|dilemma I guess. Actually I did it as I walked away hoping no one would know. They were already at me for no reason.
Help!
I felt tacky saying hi to my mom.. guess it is to be expected. I asked her why and why when my dad comes home. Hope she has a goo dday.
New Orleans
I might be nicer than some New Orleanians in general if not most. You all are just mean all the time.
Problem
My mom bore in me a hurtful message.. @ my female stuff. I am more feminine and delicate!! YOU ALL DON'T CARE. I AM FEMININE AND DELICATE.
Problem
My mom is also trying to change my body in ways I don't like. I didn't do anything. She won't stop being onto me yet wants me out.
Well
I was ignoring someone, and my mom brought it up again.
She also is trying to make love to me, but it's disgusting, I don't quite do that with anyone..
She also is trying to make love to me, but it's disgusting, I don't quite do that with anyone..
I'm serious.
My mom won't stop. She doesn't even know what I'm doing. I am trying to turn her off (on|to me.)
Problem
My mom again..?.. What do you think? Do you want me to stop talking about stuff like that? Why should I? It's just more work for me.
Problem
My aunt is sending secret messages on Facebook that I shouldn't say I'm part something but all something else. I don't care @ those jokes. My mom is chiming in secret message too. You all mad for Ellen! I wasn't even talking to her - my aunt.
Problem
I was watching something, and they said it would go, someone mad with a spoon, if I had a knife.
Since saying I was mad..
..did I sort anything out?? Because if I stop talking @ it, I dunno. I just feel something will happen.
I didn't really mean anything violent. Whatever will I do? Something will happen. Don't get me that mad in private. I was holding back I said while the thought came. Thoughts came sorta by random|accident. I would not cool off, not sure if I should have left the kitchen table all alone. I want a breakfast bar.
I didn't really mean anything violent. Whatever will I do? Something will happen. Don't get me that mad in private. I was holding back I said while the thought came. Thoughts came sorta by random|accident. I would not cool off, not sure if I should have left the kitchen table all alone. I want a breakfast bar.
OK
Now, I'm going on IMDb to release my sorrows. It's an entertainment place where you are allowed to practice self-help! :p
What Really Irritates Me
You not caring I said I'm too old to be punished. You leave hateful messages when I wasn't that bad. Sometimes, the public gets to me.
Problem
I don't like secret messages from people like that, and the 1s from my dad are very perturbing. I'm literally being attacked. For some reason I know what's going on. They're still tailing me! THEY DID IT MORE IRREGULARLY. Hey you're annoying. Wanna be trapped? :| Like me.
Problem
They won't leave me alone. They loaded the page like I have 2 little toenails! They keep having a stuck up disposition like no one should talk to me.
Problem
WHY YOU ALL UP ON ME FOR STOMPING MY FOOT - THAT GUY WOULDN'T SHUT UP
You think I didn't realize it was bad?
You think I didn't realize it was bad?
Well..
..What I ended up thinking @ Ellen for some reason was like something that came up when I was at the table annoyed at my dad the whole time!
Problem
My dad is involved in my life since Ellen DeGeneres..and Tim Burton. He left a sign on the kitchen table that that person I liked so much I met in a wheelchair who was skinny couldn't reach her food but could have a present near her.. Also, if I get upset I get in trouble the rest of the day! GO IN THE WORLD AND SEE WHY PEOPLE OTHER THAN YOU GET UPSET! YOU PATHETIC MACHINE. AND THEY WHINE FOR GRAMMA THINKING FOR SOME TACKY REASON YOU CONCOCTED THAT RELATED THINGS GET IN TROUBLE EVEN IF THEY HAVE NOTHING IN COMMON. I did get upset and stomp my foot on the boat, but so what? I didn't do anything mean. I did find that guy was unhappy after. He was being mean. Go blame him!! You all are so annoying. I don't want his carefully concocted messages. He's not even in my life. He can't come back to hurt me! I'll tell a lawyer! Unfortunately, Ellen made me mad at the peak and I ended up thinking @ something. I don't know what to do, but I didn't think it on purpose. You are annoying me while I say this. You think it doesn't matter, but it does to you! You don't even care if I'm upset.
Thursday, February 20, 2014
What I Feel
I thought of my anger of Ellen "playing" with me giving Bella all this attention from me or something. Then I didn't feel like m..
I dunno.
I know Bella's not with this program, but what if someone is? Am I suddenly the bad guy and like stuff happens all the time? What if that's all Ellen has to say? What if she's following that old bestie of mine and thinking none of us should talk about this stuff? I am perfectly sane talking about this. It's not on my priority, just don't have anything else in life but suggestions. I don't feel like leaving the house and am on my female thing..
Problem
Bella has no right to Ellen because of her childlike age to her. Who is she? anyway. That's an insult to me. That's saying some other little kid has a right over Bella, though, I think. I'm not trying to start anything, just talking.
Pretty Mad
I feel less affection now and for some reason that we have to talk to other people, too, meaning Bella.
..cont.
It's not like talking to 1 of her staff for some reason I do not know. I am happy for her, though.
Problem
Someone on here was talking to me like there's some silly reason I'm not good enough. I never imprinted myself on anyone. They are being listful and nonthinking and annoying me and not getting in trouble while people just play around with me.
How I Feel @
Bella..
I don't think there's anything wrong with talking, and I feel attacked for it. I just felt she could get like all the attention from Ellen or like I was the sore thumb. I did encourage her to come and talk. You know before Tim Burton none of this would have happened, I wouldn't be susceptible to insult quite so. I did think Bella came in either at random or in ill will, and they way she communicates does annoy me, though all I can say is yes please join.
To clarify, why does Ellen seem to follow an old bestie of mine thinking in a tacky way, "Don't say anything?" She doesn't give orders and that's barbarous! I have a freedom of speech. I know she tried to "tell us" not to gossip. What else is there to talk about?
I don't think there's anything wrong with talking, and I feel attacked for it. I just felt she could get like all the attention from Ellen or like I was the sore thumb. I did encourage her to come and talk. You know before Tim Burton none of this would have happened, I wouldn't be susceptible to insult quite so. I did think Bella came in either at random or in ill will, and they way she communicates does annoy me, though all I can say is yes please join.
To clarify, why does Ellen seem to follow an old bestie of mine thinking in a tacky way, "Don't say anything?" She doesn't give orders and that's barbarous! I have a freedom of speech. I know she tried to "tell us" not to gossip. What else is there to talk about?
Want to Be Nice
I don't think anyone really likes me, particularly this experimenter. They keep making parody of Kate Bush and it's dead annoying I say. I'm not blasting off on what to do, just wanna say that.
Problem
I got another message that I am with someone when I posted about a new zoo picture, that person I'm tired of being with. I CAN SAY WHAT I WANT AND I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK. I CURSE WHEN IT'S APPROPRIATE. WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM. I CAN'T TALK TO YOU.
Problem
Do you even care that 1/3 of my misery is from her?
This is all shit I won't take it. I mean my situation.
This is all shit I won't take it. I mean my situation.
Problem
This experimenter is acting like she's in an old white dress being too close to me.. I don't want to give my soul to this person acting like someone in a weird way!
Hm.. seems fat like Dad..
Hm.. seems fat like Dad..
More..
Why do you think you can get scared of my dad all the time? He probably doesn't care. Then it'd be Tim Burton's fault if not my dad alone. I mean, Tim Burton affected my dad then? How embarrassing! I am not my dad, though, so. I mean, he isn't as skinny, he's more set and not as athletic as I am. He's not artsy and romantic. He's introverted and intuitive. I've worked on art in my life, the joy was not there to be passed on. I don't know that I succeeded manually, but I can do work in art.
Problem
My parents keep getting in my life. My dad spilled paint on the floor of my room. My mom didn't give me money for tomorrow.
Also, I don't like these sounds in my room that sound like Kate Bush in a weird way. Whoever is experimenting is a sicko unfortunately doing trash to me or whatever.
I mean come on, do you want oh let's just do it a little more, let's do it, let's keep doing it.
I know my mom's being a sarcastic Mongoloid. She's tiny and flings out what she flings out.
This experimenter is odd and ruining it for me being so, trying to arouse me with her defunked tone.
Spilling it like a lady like I can't use curse words when I'm upset. That's personal. Lots of people probably do it.. And I don't use it in a bad way! If someone's is mean, I simply report. I don't mean to dig into anything with the cursing.
I mean, come on, I just had to m.. Why are you getting Daddy involved? He's not in my circle of friends, and I am in my 20s. You guys think he made me, I just came from him. I wasn't made that way like a puppet. I came out as a cell or collection of cells, that's all. I made myself!
Also, I don't like these sounds in my room that sound like Kate Bush in a weird way. Whoever is experimenting is a sicko unfortunately doing trash to me or whatever.
I mean come on, do you want oh let's just do it a little more, let's do it, let's keep doing it.
I know my mom's being a sarcastic Mongoloid. She's tiny and flings out what she flings out.
This experimenter is odd and ruining it for me being so, trying to arouse me with her defunked tone.
Spilling it like a lady like I can't use curse words when I'm upset. That's personal. Lots of people probably do it.. And I don't use it in a bad way! If someone's is mean, I simply report. I don't mean to dig into anything with the cursing.
I mean, come on, I just had to m.. Why are you getting Daddy involved? He's not in my circle of friends, and I am in my 20s. You guys think he made me, I just came from him. I wasn't made that way like a puppet. I came out as a cell or collection of cells, that's all. I made myself!
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
Addicted
Lots of people like watching Ellen DeGeneres. I used to watch "The Secret Circle" and didn't matter to me if I was online @ it but was..
Needs
I need to visit my Gramma, maybe why she came down, more laundry to finish. Dried stuff to fold, a full load which I can't do tonight. A rack of ironing in my old bedroom. Like 3-4 more baskets.
Weird
Saying someone is bad who is hurting you isn't bad. What can I say? People are hurting me is also bad? The messages are piercing.
Problem
I got mad again.. Am I being punished for talking @ Bella in a cruel and unusual way? I was so mad I hit my head like I saw someone do.
Apology
I am mad and was but I thought of something of someone.. I felt so bad. I should just stop this.
Again
I don't agree with saying you did something that is worse than Ellen just to feel on top of OTHERS.
I was respected like her.
I was respected like her.
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