Thursday, March 13, 2014
Problem
What's your problem? Why are you always getting mad at me! WHY DO YOU NEVER MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS! COLD AND LONELY!
Wut??
So, what, you wanna fight or get outta my life? I don't wanna be testy. There's not much to be said of it.
Well
I tried talking to them again, they won't talk to me. They are so stuck up and annoying and think they have to belittle me. Like, "Ow Kaey."
I wasn't talking @ it, but now I find I am. It's a problem.
I wasn't talking @ it, but now I find I am. It's a problem.
I don't care.
So what, you want me out. What did I ever do? You all are just coasting along in selfish pleasure. You'll be sorry you chased nice people away!
So..
The English are stuck up. Fine, I can see no one wants to talk to me. All the other non-English want the English, too. Oh, so fancy!
Question
Why would you reward someone who was mean to me so much? Didn't talk to me when I had no one. Never talked to me even when I found something else to do, well maybe not. What, am I shit? I might not be in the right frame of mind saying this, but I don't mean it in that way.
Mad
None of you have a right to be mad at me for sending all those e-mails. They were educational pamphlets!! Christina had no one to talk to. She would go mad and die.
To Make Up?
I'm sorry, but I've already apologized enough! Is this just your fancy? You like everyone I know better, my worst nightmare. I have thought of this in my subconscious often in the past. People think since I'm good I soaked up pleasure they didn't have, but that's not true.
Just tell me.
...what's wrong with what I just said? You can't arrest me for good.
There's nothing that wrong, I'm still learning and that's how I speak. I chose to be that way. Make no mistake. I didn't mean anything bad against anyone, but these friends who dumped me don't talk to me! Why talk to me about them? I just sent educational and uplifting messages. You know, there are companies that do that like Luminosity. These friends are mean to me, anyway, does it even matter? 1 of them is almost always mean because I am hiddenly Chinese.
There's nothing that wrong, I'm still learning and that's how I speak. I chose to be that way. Make no mistake. I didn't mean anything bad against anyone, but these friends who dumped me don't talk to me! Why talk to me about them? I just sent educational and uplifting messages. You know, there are companies that do that like Luminosity. These friends are mean to me, anyway, does it even matter? 1 of them is almost always mean because I am hiddenly Chinese.
Problem
I wasn't even actually against you, I'm against my old friends so much I cannot say. The world should s*** them nothing for't. Look, that's the 1 thing I don't want, my friends in my life. It's been that way since we were younger, the suggestion that they were important over me.
They just happened to be my private friends. Do they matter so? They're the 1s who probably influenced me by being mean 1st! Why don't you all GET IT. I'M RIGHT. You all are just animaling at me. GET IT DONE WITH YOU BEASTS. Or I shall be your slave master!
They just happened to be my private friends. Do they matter so? They're the 1s who probably influenced me by being mean 1st! Why don't you all GET IT. I'M RIGHT. You all are just animaling at me. GET IT DONE WITH YOU BEASTS. Or I shall be your slave master!
Read this..
only if you know you won't get mad at me
I was thinking of chuckin't, but I did a lotta work and it might help me, don't know really what I can do but express my displeasure and disgust in the change of tone etc., things you don't want me ever to say.
Sarah Brightman:
"Calling all creative fans! Sarah is giving you the chance to design a new eye-catching header picture for her official Twitter profile. To enter, tweet your creation to Sarah by tagging @sarahbrightman or upload your photo to Sarah's Facebook wall. Twitter recommends dimensions of 1252×626 and a maximum file size of 5MB. The ten most innovative entries will be added to a Facebook album and all of Sarah’s fans will have the chance to vote for their favourite. Good luck!"
It makes me think of my friends who didn't talk to me in my time of mental need! Fine and dandy for all who had no problems back in 2005.
Oh my God, something just "went through my head," too, how ***!
That is suggestive, and I know what it really says. What happened? You on the other side? I don't care @ pinpointing ideas. Tell me, what is this outrage!
You all are just overly sensitive, antisocial, etc. etc. You are suggesting lies @ "loved ones" if indeed I'd have any.
Look, no one cares about my mean older friends. They are not supposed to be a thorne on my side, getting attention and coming up in the world. This is an outrage! What did they ever do to deserve whatever they're deserving?
These people do not include me in their social life. WHO ARE YOU TO GO AGAINST MY LOVED 1s? Is it something they did to you that I thought of?
Yes, my mom trapped me in my room and told me I could work when I was just kicked outta school for poor health of some sort. For some reason, I never even thought of getting a blog! Why does everything matter so much now?!
Your post risks losing me. I wasn't mean to anyone. I just sent them sweet e-mails and ecards, no word saying no. I had nothing to do. Probably no key to the house..yet
Fine, send me animalistic symbols via things in my room, glitches and clicks! after all I worked on to type this out. You fighting online? Guess this isn't all it's cracked up to be.. ahee!
They are pulling from loved ones relationship. Just explain! You got nothing. No one does, and I already told my parents I don't care what I say. What did these friends do to deserve your violence toward me? I don't like these dorky symbols. I'm not going along with anything with anybody! If you're mad, I'll blame you! What's the big idea, stealing into those in my life and taking what I deserve!? What a worthless life! How uptight and stupid is everyone. I mean what I say, I don't mean something rash. My only language is English! And I know how to write.
Sarah Brightman:
"Calling all creative fans! Sarah is giving you the chance to design a new eye-catching header picture for her official Twitter profile. To enter, tweet your creation to Sarah by tagging @sarahbrightman or upload your photo to Sarah's Facebook wall. Twitter recommends dimensions of 1252×626 and a maximum file size of 5MB. The ten most innovative entries will be added to a Facebook album and all of Sarah’s fans will have the chance to vote for their favourite. Good luck!"
It makes me think of my friends who didn't talk to me in my time of mental need! Fine and dandy for all who had no problems back in 2005.
Oh my God, something just "went through my head," too, how ***!
That is suggestive, and I know what it really says. What happened? You on the other side? I don't care @ pinpointing ideas. Tell me, what is this outrage!
You all are just overly sensitive, antisocial, etc. etc. You are suggesting lies @ "loved ones" if indeed I'd have any.
Look, no one cares about my mean older friends. They are not supposed to be a thorne on my side, getting attention and coming up in the world. This is an outrage! What did they ever do to deserve whatever they're deserving?
These people do not include me in their social life. WHO ARE YOU TO GO AGAINST MY LOVED 1s? Is it something they did to you that I thought of?
Yes, my mom trapped me in my room and told me I could work when I was just kicked outta school for poor health of some sort. For some reason, I never even thought of getting a blog! Why does everything matter so much now?!
Your post risks losing me. I wasn't mean to anyone. I just sent them sweet e-mails and ecards, no word saying no. I had nothing to do. Probably no key to the house..yet
Fine, send me animalistic symbols via things in my room, glitches and clicks! after all I worked on to type this out. You fighting online? Guess this isn't all it's cracked up to be.. ahee!
They are pulling from loved ones relationship. Just explain! You got nothing. No one does, and I already told my parents I don't care what I say. What did these friends do to deserve your violence toward me? I don't like these dorky symbols. I'm not going along with anything with anybody! If you're mad, I'll blame you! What's the big idea, stealing into those in my life and taking what I deserve!? What a worthless life! How uptight and stupid is everyone. I mean what I say, I don't mean something rash. My only language is English! And I know how to write.
Problem
Can someone technically be born by mistake? Yes. I already smell that Nell Burton is a punishment. Same with Billy Ray Burton and Helena Bonham Carter.
Problem
My dad thinks he can say go enjoy my life, but he ruined it and says, "..BUT -THEN- IT'S WHAT."
Question
Why are you teasing me like I have a chance of going on in life without anyone getting especially mad at me as a college expeller and flunker?
Love Birds
There was a dock. Christina had a best friend named Sarah who was 10 years older. There were other girls, mostly 15, 16, 17. Boats would come in. There were different crowds. Christina sat and soaked in the environment for the hours on end. The smell of the mud, she didn't even want to eat now! She was small and frail with curling, smooth gold hair and bright blue eyes. Everyone would take care of her cuz she was still just a child.
Story
There was a beautiful maiden named Sarah B. She had a big sister named Ellen.
1 day, when she was a mother of some girls named Chloe, Bella, and Jackie, a lovely girl stumbled upon her and said, "Miss, I know not even of your name!" "Miss Sarah," she said. Now, there were lots of witches looking for the answer to life in this abode. They were always having get-togethers and when not then monitoring the house. They had a share in preparing meals and dealing with chores and things of that nature. Anyway, the girl named Christina said, "I know you have all you need, but I am here to be your guardian angel and give you what you don't have. Do not follow me or pretend to even listen, as no one does. I will be your guiding angel!" She reacted, "Oh, no, really, you see dear, I see you need a home, just come on over now! I have 3 daughters already, and you will be the 4th as I see you aren't even an adult." "Oh, but I am. I am old as these hills, young for all time. I am friends with unicorns already and know the great arctic wolves of the north quite well you see!" She paused. "I'd be happy to help your children as I see you are all travellers.." There was not much to Christina. She was really always having accidents these days and being pushed to feel what she does not want to feel. Christina was a half-breed. Her father was an American, and her mother was a pure European. She was not, so no one cared, anymore, and she was actually left quite hurt. So, she went inside and knew Chloe already and proceeded to do the work of the house in her silence. "But you have a mother." "Yes, I have, I was created on the 7th day." She already was no stranger to the mingling of strangers like family, but she could see it was a special thing in this day and age. See, with her being 1/2 from American cave men, who were Caucasian and extinct all but for her, there was a certain unwind to her where she would sit and meditate long and hard on 1 thing rather than do many things. With the help from who her mother is and the lessons she learned from it, she was able to act as though she were all European and all accepted but was always half drugged. She didn't want to get up and do chores but knew she should and glided @ the house all day, as things happen in this way for her, too, though.
1 day, when she was a mother of some girls named Chloe, Bella, and Jackie, a lovely girl stumbled upon her and said, "Miss, I know not even of your name!" "Miss Sarah," she said. Now, there were lots of witches looking for the answer to life in this abode. They were always having get-togethers and when not then monitoring the house. They had a share in preparing meals and dealing with chores and things of that nature. Anyway, the girl named Christina said, "I know you have all you need, but I am here to be your guardian angel and give you what you don't have. Do not follow me or pretend to even listen, as no one does. I will be your guiding angel!" She reacted, "Oh, no, really, you see dear, I see you need a home, just come on over now! I have 3 daughters already, and you will be the 4th as I see you aren't even an adult." "Oh, but I am. I am old as these hills, young for all time. I am friends with unicorns already and know the great arctic wolves of the north quite well you see!" She paused. "I'd be happy to help your children as I see you are all travellers.." There was not much to Christina. She was really always having accidents these days and being pushed to feel what she does not want to feel. Christina was a half-breed. Her father was an American, and her mother was a pure European. She was not, so no one cared, anymore, and she was actually left quite hurt. So, she went inside and knew Chloe already and proceeded to do the work of the house in her silence. "But you have a mother." "Yes, I have, I was created on the 7th day." She already was no stranger to the mingling of strangers like family, but she could see it was a special thing in this day and age. See, with her being 1/2 from American cave men, who were Caucasian and extinct all but for her, there was a certain unwind to her where she would sit and meditate long and hard on 1 thing rather than do many things. With the help from who her mother is and the lessons she learned from it, she was able to act as though she were all European and all accepted but was always half drugged. She didn't want to get up and do chores but knew she should and glided @ the house all day, as things happen in this way for her, too, though.
Issue
Late Boomers put off growing up and that's why they have no kids. Too bad lots of people wanted to adopt me. It's made kids jealous. I am too old.
My Looks and Personality
What if I just slightly resembled Kate Bush but had nothing like Sarah Brightman? Skin deep.
Facebook Post
"I've discovered my new favorite thing @ Florida, though, the melancholy of living in the South with the beach|ocean.."
It's hard being a Floridian among others because you know you don't have family with you that much, you know it's hard to meet people, and then 1 day you finally meet someone and then something goes wrong. It isn't really a place to move to and live your whole life.. but what do I know? I admit it is fun to be up north when you are young, where it's colder like Erie or Cleveland. I've discovered my new favorite thing @ Florida, though, the melancholy of living in the South with the beach|ocean.. It helps to live in more than 1 place depending on what the place is. I'm just sad it took me so long to grow up and learn my lesson. I'd love to go back to college in Cleveland. There'd be people my age at the bar and stuff. I just feel I'd stick out like a sore thumb. I have some things going for me here but not much. I painted my room a color like they'd have at Miami Beach, greenish blue but not pale greenish blue, a very solid color. If I moved up north, I'd do something smarter. Here it's more like living in a shack, you walk in the house, you walk out the house. Up north, I had feelings about memes in life and was still young.. I don't want younger people around me to act like they're older than me so much unless it's a fun time. I haven't really been enough places to say, but I like a small town named Berea by Cleveland. I went to Oberlin, and it was different, more outsiders because it was a conservatory of music town. I was at a lower ranked conservatory in Berea interestingly enough. I just don't feel like leaving home too long and am worried @ money and how it's easier at home and there are things I need I can get at any moment. Also, I wanna get off my medicine. I might not take it if I go to college. My parents don't care, I heard. My mom wants me on it if I'm at home she said before because I'm around her then and went to a bad mental hospital 3 times. I didn't get mad up north but did down south.
It's hard being a Floridian among others because you know you don't have family with you that much, you know it's hard to meet people, and then 1 day you finally meet someone and then something goes wrong. It isn't really a place to move to and live your whole life.. but what do I know? I admit it is fun to be up north when you are young, where it's colder like Erie or Cleveland. I've discovered my new favorite thing @ Florida, though, the melancholy of living in the South with the beach|ocean.. It helps to live in more than 1 place depending on what the place is. I'm just sad it took me so long to grow up and learn my lesson. I'd love to go back to college in Cleveland. There'd be people my age at the bar and stuff. I just feel I'd stick out like a sore thumb. I have some things going for me here but not much. I painted my room a color like they'd have at Miami Beach, greenish blue but not pale greenish blue, a very solid color. If I moved up north, I'd do something smarter. Here it's more like living in a shack, you walk in the house, you walk out the house. Up north, I had feelings about memes in life and was still young.. I don't want younger people around me to act like they're older than me so much unless it's a fun time. I haven't really been enough places to say, but I like a small town named Berea by Cleveland. I went to Oberlin, and it was different, more outsiders because it was a conservatory of music town. I was at a lower ranked conservatory in Berea interestingly enough. I just don't feel like leaving home too long and am worried @ money and how it's easier at home and there are things I need I can get at any moment. Also, I wanna get off my medicine. I might not take it if I go to college. My parents don't care, I heard. My mom wants me on it if I'm at home she said before because I'm around her then and went to a bad mental hospital 3 times. I didn't get mad up north but did down south.
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