New Videos

New Videos of Me Singing - nothing very good yet

Problem

These people are sending me messages with sounds and stuff in my room, and if I had a bad day they just chose to rip me apart.  It was only in thought, too.  I don't like this.  I know it doesn't matter and isn't my fault.

New Videos

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Problem

I don't know, for some reason I get nervous reactions of violence in my head.

Feel sorry my dad seems tired, too.

Problem

My mom wants me dead forever and thinks I'm my dad, but she won't stop!  I don't wanna be like that ever.  She doesn't have to do that!  I'm too old for her!  My dad is fatter.

Problem

Ellen is making me mad and making it so no one likes me, thinking "1, 2, it's like that," like I'm just shit.  I keep getting annoying messages.  I am trying to ignore them, but for some reason she wants me not to think of certain things, like hitting people.  This has stuff at stake that matter.

The Book on Self-Control

Only stated to prepare yourself entering a room like, nothing @ if someone is playing with your head and you can't get them to leave at all.  What should I do?  I don't wanna listen to them.

I'm not actually a person to them, I'm mixed, how convenient.  WELL, APPARENTLY I AM NOT A MUT.

Upset

I got so upset but now I'm on medicine.  I didn't do anything the police would care @.

I mean it was in my head.

Choices

I'm disturbed enough that if my singing is made fun of by a certain person that I wouldn't actually do it, but that I would if Ellen did it.

I need to leave this place, but I hope my teacher can help me sing, may not even go to Disney next year.

You know, I came here wanting to do ballet and didn't know if I could karaoke online or not actually, so.

Even If They Did

Why?

Bothered

Yes, bad things are coming outta me but I don't think I'd mean it unless I were sure of what someone I liked did to me.  I just got no proof.  Maybe, they "wanna be left alone."

Problem

I have to watch how the page loads each time, too.

Problem

There are crazy noises coming from a machine in here and I think from the neighbors.

Mad

People were mad at me because I checked Twitter when Sarah Brightman might be on.  I see so far she's skipped her daily post on Facebook.  I was checking just to check, though.

Problem

They reminded me @ brushing my teeth when I was thinking @ food.  It's not like I forgot.

Problem

I'm being punished by my day ruined for no reason.  I wanna think @ supper, not @ brushing my teeth.  Then they did another reminder to stimulate someone.  YOU THINK  I'M A NIGGER?  You don't have a right to sit there and push buttons on my life!

Problem

My parents "changed around the furniture" supposedly because of something I did.  I will not accept you people coming in and punishing me like I'm bad.  I even think people like Ellen secretly converse to my parents for some bad reason.  I don't do anything bad.  Just because you picked on other worse kids before does not mean you can pick on me all the time like that.  We should pick on you, instead, if anyone, or those who wrongly went on and on.

Dream

I remember my dad was giving out chocolate.  I turned into a "Photoshopped" little dog or man.  Anyway, then I was like a caterpillar in the Main Street Electrical Parade moving along slowly.

Later, Ellen was in a cave saying only tell them the new discovery if they key is lit up.  I struggled up to hear, something in Eirope I think.

I think it was a dangerous scene.

New Videos

New Videos of Me - but nothing too exciting

Perfection

Why does that gripe @ Ellen, if I can't keep track of a thought?  I know this friend said she used to be more like a valley girl with a rubbery figure but didn't and now is working on something ^bigger and better^.  So, with other people who look either rubbery or more like glass, that connects to this situation?