Losing Weight

That's why I'm gonna do ballet all week.

I gained 60 pounds stemming from college.

Answer

Do you want to be talked about?  Okay, some people are embarrassed and think it's someone else's fault if their weight is the only factor of themselves they dislike.

Lots of overweight people are so kind!

Problem

You do mean things to me when I do something good that you don't like.

Another Request

I don't want people to rub themselves into me.. do you need someone to touch?

Question

Ellen, don't you wanna stop acting like you get all the pleasure, yet?  I mean, you do it because people all want you to feel bad and perverted but to feel something for them.

Bad Idea

I got reminded of someone, and it made me go against them.  Someone tried to ingrain it in me.  This person is doing things like this right and left like some crazy dream.  :|

Well

The wrong version loaded, but oh well, I'll make more.

mi song!

link

happy listening

MY SONG MY SONG

TV

watching Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory on TV

Edit

1st link + added something

TV

It's supposed to be 90s.

link

Claudia Lee

link

Problem

My experience with Ellen is just being against me like everyone else for that N word thing with Nell Burton.

just the other day

AGT

I submitted me singing I Vow to Thee, My Country to America's Got Talent, the 1st 1 and that channel.

The Muppets

Post

Post

Problem

My dad keeps acting like I need to be punished and is not letting me have a good relationship with anyone.

Also

He swung his jacket over his shoulder..why??

Problem

My dad came home with chocolate snacks.

Plan

Hoping I can take non-major classes for dance in the summer.

Ballet

1 place said I could take a placement class.  I need pointe shoes, though..

Plan

I will also probably ask my psychiatrist to write me the note to return to the community college so I can major in dance.  Singing is easy there, as far as requirements I think, not much to do?

I could transfer to Utah and major in ballet.

So

I'll see if I can ignore it.  I dunno why this morning I thought something weird.  It was just a thought that was forced upon me and I didn't mean it.  It wasn't my thought.  I know these things.

Also

I was irritated and thought something weird.  Sorry @ it.  I don't mean it.

This is rather risky.  What should I do?  I tried to disconnect and redo my room, but I need to do more laundry next week when my mom's not using it on the weekend.  I'm too tired to finish Friday, maybe, and might not have enough places to hang more clothes.

Wondering

So, why does my mom go around irritating me with messages from elsewhere?

People can get upset at me if they want, but I don't think I did anything that bad.. oh well, what was it?

Mean

You all treat me like I'm inhuman.  See, you aren't gonna win over me.

What to Do

I need to rearrange my room and do laundry, guess I will try, Mom's napping, don't have good music.

Disgusted

I don't like seeing someone hungry for someone racially, like over me.  You're officially ousted from this dignity..

Liar

You don't even accept I do not mean it but could to someone.

Problem

I don't wanna be pressured to see if I do or do not think something bad.  It might just come to me.  Because of you pressuring me.  I am not an animal.

Problem

This person thinks they can ignore me and totally miss the point, has a temper.

Problem

Someone told someone not to post online cuz they were mean to me and I was upset..

E-Mail

I am interested in taking classes.

I did ballet until I was 21 and then took a break and was wondering if I could take level 3A|B because it's the 1 that starts pointe.  Can I come in and be assessed? I do not want to take adult classes.  Thanks.

Sincerely,
Christina Barrett

Problem

I just don't feel like doing anything.

Why can't I say..

..like how annoying someone is.. I was thinking I didn't do ballet but wanted to but did other fun things, instead..

Problem

My mom is playing around and got me a packaged food that's usually more fresh and said I could have it.

No Shot..

I can understand not being given special privileges, but I have no fair shot at life!  You can't just tell me something I did was importantly suggestive and linger on it for your own self .. you know also it hurts me and I don't wanna have it ruin my life, the opportunity anyone gets.. true I'd get in trouble, but if you people were nice I wouldn't probably.  You worry a lot, and you don't like to pay attention to me.

E-Mail

I just wanted a full schedule.  I see Level 1 is 2 days a week with 4 kinds of classes.  It doesn't say anything else about it.

Level 2 might be good since it has pre-point and I used to take pointe class since I'd started at 16-17.

Level 3 would be fine, but when I stopped to catch up on sleep and exercise in other ways I was in level 4, though no I'm not incredibly thin yet.  I think I'd like level 2 or 3.

As to looking at level 4, it looks more exciting, but I probably wouldn't go beyond that.  I mean, I see it includes Pilates and Character but no Tap..  The last levels, 5 and 6, look too high.  I thought they'd also want to assimulate my age into a higher group and consider that I've done some ballet from age 12-21.  If you must know my age, it's 27.  I've went and done a little gymnastics since then, too, but not much.  I find I can still dance when I've taken a warm-up class.

I am aware of your program for adults who have never done ballet and who can pick up fast on dance moves maybe because they did modern dancing.  I really don't like that program for me, so if you want me to do that I am not interested.  I was in your regular program with the levels when I was 21 but quit because I needed to catch up on sleep.  I tried to go back and it was hard but think I may be ready again if I can go back to like level 4 or even if I'm bumped down to level 2 or 3.  I'm not fat fat.  I'll send you a picture of me when I was in school in the past 2 years.. Well, I found this video: http://youtu.be/jM0MhZV32-8.  I'm maybe a bit less in shape or active, but that seems to be about the same size.  I just stopped taking body pictures and would have to get on my makeup and everything.  But that was only last year, so it looks like I could take ballet.  My only problem honestly is memorizing.  I am fine, otherwise.  I was also looking for a gymnastics program, but they all have insurance issues with people over 18.  So, I dunno.  The only other thing I wonder is if I took adult ballet in the summer or rest of this year if I could get placed with the kids in the fall.  Honestly, still, I don't have any problems that need fixed especially but wanted to wait until a new year started because you wouldn't be rehearsing.  I mean in regards to taking adult ballet 1st.  I'm pretty accurate and just forgetful, and I know adult classes are more for people who remember easily rather than have perfect technique and that kids classes are more friendly with memorization but like me strict with technique.  It's interesting it works out.  What I'm doing now is I just had my 1st Disney pass and I sing on my own at home.  I'm gonna take singing in the summer if I can from a teacher who is only available then.  I know some dance and gym schools offer music.  I know I'm too late anyway for summer intensive.

If not, I may try Valencia, though I am not interested in so much modern dance.. I've been there.  I'd prefer to go to your school, it has more ballet and "The Nutcracker."

If you want I can come in so you can place me, though, despite my age.  I still look like I'm 20, I think.  I'll be 28 in May.  My goal is to be a pro singer, dancer, and actor, or something like that.

If you say no, I wonder if later the rules may change or something or whatever the reason would be I couldn't.  I mean, I am still 27 and look pretty young.  Should I jump in a class now?  Or make sure I take it in the summer?  I guess as adult ballet until the fall comes and I can take it with the kids since I missed summer intensive auditions.

Thank you so much.  :)  I hope the answer is yes.  Please help me to get back in ballet!  They let me in the kids class when I was 21.  I was in the teen class, and sometimes we'd combine, I was 20, and then I signed up for the regular program with the kids the next year.  So, maybe after some adult classes, by this fall I can enter with the kids.  I was hoping I could do it now since I did it before in my 20s.  I know there was a boy who was 28 in the teen class and in the Nutcracker, so I expect to be allowed.  :)  So, please help me and thank you, so much!  I believe in your school over the Valencia program!  I am guessing you want me to come in to see, like Orlando Ballet did a long time ago.  They did not want me to come back because it didn't seem right for me.  There were lots of teens and they seemed to know the drill, though at your school I didn't have that kind of problem.  I would be allowed back if I improved, but they said to go to Valencia.  They just said it was a kid thing and they didn't have time to help me and were dedicated to the kids, giving them even extra time after class.  If I can't go here, I may try again there.  I hope you allow me to return.  I'm going to ask all the schools that will answer, just in case I don't get in 1.  After Orlando Ballet didn't let me go, I went back to Interlochen for adults which also did a recital, your teen program, and the adult Orlando Ballet class, which was fun but hard to keep up in.  I have lost fat and gained muscle since trying to do Orlando Ballet.  I was hoping doing the ballet would make me thinner, along with jogging and weight training, which it did.  Just a little can go a long way, eventually.

Thank you so much for listening to me, and I guess I will wait for your response, hope you will let me come in and try.  :)  Thanks!

Sincerely,

Christina Barrett

Think she might have felt pressured?

I got told I'm not someone's friend, "Well, just like that."  I was being hurt by them and didn't wanna control their pressure on me of what was thought.  I don't claim to have thought it and blame them for inconveniencing me.

Problem

Supposedly, my dad said to do it, and I don't want him in my life like that.  Even if I moved, I could still get messages.

2 Problems

The people in the experiment are really giving me annoying or stupid messages.

I keep getting "woken up" to fight something.  And I didn't do what I didn't do, you thought of what you thought of, and I don't feel like finding I have a problem and need to fight shit.  I probably need rest and stuff.

The people in the experiment believe they fascinate me with their perverted, grotesque accusations and threats, to me and if I have kids, sounds like someone else though too @ the kids.  That's not nice and not right.  It's just gonna leave me alone in the situation with no way out.

At Least

I've been sifting through as well what not to think nor do cuz it isn't okay.

Why curse?  Why not curse?

How I Feel

I feel like I just woke up in the hot sun on the beach.  I was on my side clutching an ear plug or so.  No one around.

Problem

IMDb doesn't let you pick different colors..

Oh, no, a thought passed when my mom was out.  :0  It gets worse sometimes, but now I think my song made people happy.  ;D

Oh, IMDb is more advanced now, though.

IMDb - BabyFrog

Problem

They just said to drop dead.

Problem

Was thinking @ my dad causing the problems and suddenly the page loads better now.

And

The person watching me keeps affecting the computer.  They don't like me.

Problem

So, people do bad things to me.

Problem

They were mean and I wasn't cursing badly at them.

Problem

They are being mean now and I just apologized for something people do.

Problem

They are threatening people I know to remember them at a certain time.

Mad?

Now, if I'm happy they're mad.

Well..

..sorry @ the suggestions and commotions, have a nice night.

Problem

That person talking to me is being nasty.. they loaded the page crunched up on the sides.  So what?  You'do something illegal 'someone did that t'you.

Sorry

If I was harsh, but I feel hurt and weird.  I was wondering @ how I believed I should be left alone.  I mean really, is this some English tactic these people applied, they don't want me?  Actually, sometimes in what they do I get little messages, and I mean just talk to me.  They won't, and it's weird.  I think that's what they wanted, anyway, though.  I hope to make money from my singing and live a fun life alone on the beach.  Actually, I was thinking of going to college, too, for animation.

Problem

I got up to eat and they called me stupid, cuz I sat when it loaded.  They're trying to idealize things tackily.  I just have to come back and post this later when they get in a last word.  I don't like the dares that are being made at me like a sport.  I don't really know who it is?  Why can't I be upset?  I don't believe in being mean to me.  I didn't do anything to anyone.  What if I did, nothing recent?  They were being subtly racist!

Mad?

Why should I care if you're mad?  Are you mad cuz I lost my friends by either repeatedly messaging or was upset at their hidden racism?  I told them sorry and they didn't write back, so I think they're wrong.

I was saying why should I care, I believe what I believe.  It's something that's not illegal I wanna get out of.  People are all holding painful grudges against me since Tim Burton became popular.

Sorry if this upsets anyone.  I don't mean to be just nasty, just saying.  I don't wanna put up with all that's going along with something I didn't do and don't believe @.  I mean, who does that, who would you want to do that?  It is a bit weird.  I think I may have hurt myself.  True, you could go further and pretend I need to take precaution all the time, but I ain't gonna.  That must just be the plea, that I'd need to protect myself.  No one should care @ me for that, you'd think.  It might be nice in that way, whether or not you know it.  It did bother me, though, that people actually think they need to do this to me..  What am I to you, a machine or monster?  What did I put online that would make me seem to be that hefty?

Anyway, sorry, but I mean I already said sorry.  I think they are bad to not talk to me.  I am really mad they are trying to control my life that way, get sympathy for something they did wrong, still there to bother me.  I mean, they do matter, like anyone would.  I just don't know how to settle my thoughts, in a way.  Sorry once isn't good?  I am nice to them.  I don't really talk to them,  But I mean I would be nice and wish they would talk nicely.  You know, even to say it's okay.  I guess we needed our freedom.  As far as the burden of knowing them like this, I mean it's like some other people who've nagged at me.  I want to have fun, but they make me uncomfortable..

Well, okay for now.

About saying why're you mad.. I mean why should I care.. I mean that I thought I was hurt for it.  I can kinda feel a result from it.

I have more to talk @..

Sorry I was a bit harsh.

on Twitter

Apology

I also proceeded to feel upse in the kitchen, no outward aggression.  Sorry for some things that I thought, but I didn't try to think them.

Why should I care?

If no one cares @ me?  I mean like when I curse @ stuff.  I don't really curse that much, though, and used to never.  I think I started cuz I thought people who curse provided the world with entertainment.  Now, they don't seem to make as much a statement.  I think they are well-liked.

Weird

You know what.. my right side feels light and numb and the left filled and weighted down and somewhat mushy.  The right side is cold and the left is warm, was sleeping on my left.

Sorry

I should not have cursed at you since you don't like it, but.. I am getting annoyed at being taken advantage of for my being allowed to curse when others do and you don't care.  They curse @ people..  Mine wasn't even bad, but it could get worse.  I forget what I was gonna say really.  Guess no one wants to be cursed at really?  So, I can curse at someone else perhaps, no?  I was also talking to myself.