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8|10 more interesting improving - All I Ask of You

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Comment on Sarah's post - my dad

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may or may not post

Apology

Well, I did start off a little physically mad, not sure, took my meds and feel better.

Quote by Me Now

You don't take a chance, you get a chance.

Issue

Why must I do something bad to do something good after?  Think of how inspiring it would be instead of leading people into execution.

Long Facebook Post

I love how you have an official website. I wonder if soon all my activity will be plastered to my blog. Your website is so loverrly!

8I I am not a dreamer, but I am a dream ^chaser^.

You are very different, Sarah, I dream of meeting people, I dream of being a singer and dancer but am too old to chase a dream like that..

You dream of things like stars, an escape from the cruelty of the world.. I dream of privacy and being accepted by people, of having a successful career in something that changes people's moods and minds!

You have lived many a dream. You have met many people. I have experienced new things in my life all the time. I have experienced too much hardship and my own stupidity and timidity, a fear of what others can use me for, a nightmare that came true.

All people want to tell me is not to talk to you, not to talk to her, so on and so forth, just kidding.

You have done such a wonderful job on your year tour.. I am glad you are on a break and can seem to relax online even though you are a star and so world famed and loved and adored by 1 and by all.

Sarah, I have dreamed for righteousness and love only to find I am handicapped emotionally and revert to personal violence and outward aggressive behavior. I have to look around every corner..

Dreams can be shattered, but you dream of the stars above! Like a great dome.

I just wanted to tell you how much I have loved you and am ready to love you.. I hope my post was pleasing and thought-proviking

I hope my post was not too long, but I wish more people would make posts like this to you and learn to express themselves to both you and others they wish to speak with. Normal people who go online may talk to me on my blog or the forum I set up since it can be hard to keep track of comments. So, I just make this post to you in love that things for you go well and of course for others to read and enjoy, as well. :) Thank you so much Sarah for being there for all these people.. We all are waiting for you to do what you will do next! Though I know not what they know.

Just thank you so much and hope my post is okay! Beautiful site!

Time to Get Ready

I guess I'll go do my makeup and then practice.. I spent the day being upset.

Ethnicities

Do you agree with letting others burst out in an English fetish in the states?  I am suspicious I might like English.  Who is to be discluded, I mean?

They blast out more than the English themselves.

Issue

I must sort out my feelings.

Plan

I guess I will do singing 1st and hopefully catch Ellen's show tomorrow.  I just put in a load of laundry!  Not much left.

Quote by Me Now

"You were once a baby, too."

Chores

I think the dishes make me feel stronger.  Laundry day?

Well, I am..

..now physically weak.

Schedule

So, Ellen.. I have a support group once a week, which ads to the burden of my life and watching your show, but I'll be free by summer.  Though, I am to work at the SPCA in April, May, and June, for volunteer, hopefully 2 hours 2 days a week.  Guess I won't be going to Wet and Wild yet..

Problem

I don't like people putting people on edge all the time.  You can just go to Hell.  You say whatever you want, I'll respond.  And no I wouldn't say that to 1 person, though unfortunately certain people would come to mind when called upon.

Weirdos

Why do you think that someone older you owe them something for doing anything?  You're on cr***.

Is that..

..a little girl sobbing in the room next to mine?

I know I'm being watched.

Ow, my right ear, but I almost hit water in 2 electronic areas and things.

Problem

My dad could just attack at any time.

Problem

My Gramma supposedly had my dad punish me again, not to care @ my future son.

Problem

No one cares about hurting my life if something goes a little wrong.

Problem

I think I hurt my ear with the water bottle.  My dad can't not wanna see my future son.  I am white!  SOMEONE DO SOMETHING.  RIGHT NOW.

Things as Is

have gotten pretty bad.

I had a dream Jesus was pulling out the thorns from his head but no blood.

What I Don't Like

So, someone can just go along with something for them that isn't right.

I can feel pain in my personal area.  Pain in the form of a feeling but not just plain pain, pain that can't seem to go away, that just seems pushed like someone saying, "I hate you, I hate you."

I just can't believe

all the crap in music that's out there, don't want to name all the people or anything, but I mean I also care @ what I put out there as far as singing goes.  I know my singing is bad, but I rate it.  It's not for sale.

What I Feel

I don't think it's right for me to really end up hitting things.. but no one will accept what I say.  Like, I say they are wrong and they just won't seem to leave.

Well

The blood is warm on my finger now.. my other fingers feel like fire, as well.

Music

Sarah Brightman Time to Say Goodbye - wow sliding the notes, my teacher didn't let me do that.. Think of Me - She doesn't sound white.. okay now on Blogger.. she is scared to feel, like Ellen.  Time to .. tell Christina good bye

Waiting to Be Stolen From

I learned more about how being mad pops blood vessels.

Problem

All these people threaten me after they started being mean to me..

Lucky for Me

Time until I have something to do for my wounds to heal.

Also, I stopped following companies and put them in a Favorites list.

Wonder what else will happen to me.

I already cut myself and popped a vein a little in my hand.

Problem

A vein on my hand is popping by the knuckle some.

Problem

I keep throwing things and wanting to hit something.  Some people had jogged by me.

You think you can control my life?

Problem

Did I almost break my legs?

Are you talking back to me?

Problem

Should I just go to bed or practice.

Also, when I post something something else happens and others don't care @ it and think it's due to me and funny.

Problem

I'm being monitored by shit from someone.

Problem

My parents think they can do whatever they want to me because they're my parents.

Problem

My dad won't stop.

Problem

Mean secret messages.

Problem

My dad acted like a secret message he wouldn't come see my son on the death of his mom.

Also

Why can't I complain about my problems without punishments adding up?  I know my life is shit for being mixed.

Losing Respect

Ever thing someone older seems smart?  What if they are mean actually?  This is some thing, not an occurrence.

What's up?

Also, what's wrong with my dad?  He's so annoying.  And if I say so he'll be more annoying.  A lot of stupid things are being done.

This Is Where I Go

I am used to complaining about my problems constructively on my blog.  Doesn't everyone have an outlet?  What's wrong?  I got really mad inside.  I can't seem to help it.

Besides

I was criticizing and begging for help for my problems with no friends and feeling down.

Problem

These lousy adults are bringing in extraneous forces when I warned on it.  Well, it also got me really mad.  IT's being done repeatively.  People think they found the real me at home not as good as in public, but really I am.  I can complain if I want.  I will never forgive.

What I Don't Like

I don't like when certain people try to teach me a lesson because they really treat me like I'm an adult and I'm good.

Problem

Today is a special day.

The Night

I was in bed for over 12 hours.

Feeling Bad

I got another message because I wasn't mum, done on purpose.  My parents having access to my private life seems weird.  You can all get to my private life via my blog.  I didn't do anything bad, but they didn't like it and rubbed some thing in that may or may not be true.  They are on my back.  I'm also getting jokes from somewhere else that stay.