Thursday, March 13, 2014

Love Birds

There was a dock.  Christina had a best friend named Sarah who was 10 years older.  There were other girls, mostly 15, 16, 17.  Boats would come in.  There were different crowds.  Christina sat and soaked in the environment for the hours on end.  The smell of the mud, she didn't even want to eat now!  She was small and frail with curling, smooth gold hair and bright blue eyes.  Everyone would take care of her cuz she was still just a child.

Story

There was a beautiful maiden named Sarah B.  She had a big sister named Ellen.

1 day, when she was a mother of some girls named Chloe, Bella, and Jackie, a lovely girl stumbled upon her and said, "Miss, I know not even of your name!"  "Miss Sarah," she said.  Now, there were lots of witches looking for the answer to life in this abode.  They were always having get-togethers and when not then monitoring the house.  They had a share in preparing meals and dealing with chores and things of that nature.  Anyway, the girl named Christina said, "I know you have all you need, but I am here to be your guardian angel and give you what you don't have.  Do not follow me or pretend to even listen, as no one does.  I will be your guiding angel!"  She reacted, "Oh, no, really, you see dear, I see you need a home, just come on over now!  I have 3 daughters already, and you will be the 4th as I see you aren't even an adult."  "Oh, but I am.  I am old as these hills, young for all time.  I am friends with unicorns already and know the great arctic wolves of the north quite well you see!"  She paused.  "I'd be happy to help your children as I see you are all travellers.."  There was not much to Christina.  She was really always having accidents these days and being pushed to feel what she does not want to feel.  Christina was a half-breed.  Her father was an American, and her mother was a pure European.  She was not, so no one cared, anymore, and she was actually left quite hurt.  So, she went inside and knew Chloe already and proceeded to do the work of the house in her silence.  "But you have a mother."  "Yes, I have, I was created on the 7th day."  She already was no stranger to the mingling of strangers like family, but she could see it was a special thing in this day and age.  See, with her being 1/2 from American cave men, who were Caucasian and extinct all but for her, there was a certain unwind to her where she would sit and meditate long and hard on 1 thing rather than do many things.  With the help from who her mother is and the lessons she learned from it, she was able to act as though she were all European and all accepted but was always half drugged.  She didn't want to get up and do chores but knew she should and glided @ the house all day, as things happen in this way for her, too, though.

Issue

Late Boomers put off growing up and that's why they have no kids.  Too bad lots of people wanted to adopt me.  It's made kids jealous.  I am too old.
Nitey Soon Maybe

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My Looks and Personality

What if I just slightly resembled Kate Bush but had nothing like Sarah Brightman?  Skin deep.

^Figures^

People are mad if your dad wins.

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"I've discovered my new favorite thing @ Florida, though, the melancholy of living in the South with the beach|ocean.."

It's hard being a Floridian among others because you know you don't have family with you that much, you know it's hard to meet people, and then 1 day you finally meet someone and then something goes wrong. It isn't really a place to move to and live your whole life.. but what do I know? I admit it is fun to be up north when you are young, where it's colder like Erie or Cleveland. I've discovered my new favorite thing @ Florida, though, the melancholy of living in the South with the beach|ocean.. It helps to live in more than 1 place depending on what the place is. I'm just sad it took me so long to grow up and learn my lesson. I'd love to go back to college in Cleveland. There'd be people my age at the bar and stuff. I just feel I'd stick out like a sore thumb. I have some things going for me here but not much. I painted my room a color like they'd have at Miami Beach, greenish blue but not pale greenish blue, a very solid color. If I moved up north, I'd do something smarter. Here it's more like living in a shack, you walk in the house, you walk out the house. Up north, I had feelings about memes in life and was still young.. I don't want younger people around me to act like they're older than me so much unless it's a fun time. I haven't really been enough places to say, but I like a small town named Berea by Cleveland. I went to Oberlin, and it was different, more outsiders because it was a conservatory of music town. I was at a lower ranked conservatory in Berea interestingly enough. I just don't feel like leaving home too long and am worried @ money and how it's easier at home and there are things I need I can get at any moment. Also, I wanna get off my medicine. I might not take it if I go to college. My parents don't care, I heard. My mom wants me on it if I'm at home she said before because I'm around her then and went to a bad mental hospital 3 times. I didn't get mad up north but did down south.

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

What'd you say..

What do you think of a person who would suggest they wanted to destroy someone's talent because of their age and suddenly be able to milk it to someone a bit younger?

Also, are kids born in 1997 more 80s successful than those born in 1987-1996?

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They are amateur and winded.

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HA

Supposedly Sarah Brightman has to be better than me, but I'm already really good, and they didn't find anywhere to boost her rating.

I mean my singing voice when I'm in training like before.

New Place New Schedule

Monday 6-7
Tuesday 6-8
Thursday 6-9

Problem

People are going behind my back making shit messages.

found the next star who can sing

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Ballet

I'm going tomorrow!

Abuse

I think my dad is abusing someone.

I don't wanna bother abusing him.

And

I can afford it!  $343.

E-Mail

I'd like to be placed in the level 4 schedule.

I used to take classes here, I think at about that level.  I like the schedule because it has more time for ballet.  I'd like to start in the fall.  Currently, I am staying in shape working out and eating enough.  I don't know if you want me in a lower level, but I guess I will take a trial class when the next school year starts.  Is that okay?  I exercise regularly now.  I also sing and plan to spend my summer doing that, as well.  I am a serious performer and have had ballet at least once a week for years.

So, should I plan a trial class in level 4 when the new school year begins?  I also plan to take the Jazz/Contemporary, Modern, Pilates, and Character.

Thanks.

Problem

A new poster is on IMDb.. just bc of "what I did"

Problem

I couldn't even keep singing and they are clicking feeling outta me..

And when I post I keep getting a swirly thing as I leave and no posts shown then.  There used to be a Google share popup..

Wish Me Luck

I'm gonna sing again.  1st, I have a warmup from old lessons.  Then, a warmup book and my own set of warmups.

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I love it! I don't know who wrote you that, but I made a private honest review of my feelings right now, which are very depressed and critically injured, but you guys might think it's funny. I wish I could be more funny now. (Only click if you want to know what I really feel now and are interested. I thought some of you might like it. It's not really bad. Edit: I don't even remember what I meant. http://20joanna14.blogspot.com/2014/03/an-honest-review.html) Anyway, cute remix, that must be the thing to do. I must have liked pop music a lot as a baby because it doesn't really leave an impression on me.

**** my parents and send them to jail!

My brother was overly compliant to my parents and they didn't care.  They're dumb.

They're just like "U hum, I wonder wut that [really] means."

Problem

I made something for Sarah Brightman and since Blogger has messed up with something sloppy that's like it.

Problem

Why is everyone so mean?  I know they are mad at things like me failing, because I was walking around.  Then, they think I was bad to e-mail my friends when they didn't e-mail back.  What am I, shit?

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me being upset more sad than on display

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Problem

I can't relax with these noises.

Issue

I'm already up there, I don't need my dirt nosed dad.

Problem

They felt for a boy from England just because I hit on my bed.

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Well, we can't listen to silly rules that hold no truth, like if something is involved it always means something, like you can't even frikkin figure it out for yourself.

Problem

These noises are annoying me.

Problem

I see that someone might do something @ being born in 1960.

Problem

bleeding where I was cut before.. just hit my bed and myself.

THEY ARE TALKING AGAIN

Problem

They wanna control me.  They keep talking.

Problem

They won't stop.

Problem

I'm getting shit messages.  Like someone needs it.

Problem

I'm getting irritated and want to hit something.

Problem

They were giving me annoying messages recording a video..

Now I can't feel as much.

Problem

I didn't grow up for my dad.  I feel his m****ing me.

Well

You don't have my problems.

Identity

Why don't I have 1?

An ^Honest^ Review

"There is a room
It floats above the stars
This is my home"

You sound like you wanna get away.


"It's filled with twisted light
Our prayers will speak soon
But not without words
Where I had lost you
But now I've found you
With only one word I reach you
Glowing sun"

It sounds like some people are more sensitive than others can be.


"And here you are and here you are
Now I have found you
It's time to say goodnight
How could I reach you
When you had passed me by
I said the last word
Only this one word"

It sounds like you all want everything.


"It couldn't save you from the long night
With all the brave hearts in opal sky
Glowing sunday
And in your shadows the frightened eyes
And here you are Glosoli"

Well, I didn't really like it..  :I  Go have fun.


I can't seem to look at it positively.  You just seem freely mad.

You have what you want supposedly.. like attention.

Problem

Because of someone, I keep hearing negative messages.  Like, oh, this is my chance.

Problem

People are keeping a record of me..

Problem

Someone is threatening me about where I want to sing like in public.  Why?  I am already a singer!  What do you mean I did something all of a sudden?  And I had to type this out.

Problem

No one will stop trying to assimilate me as shit like my dad.  That's not nice to him, too.  I am a completely different person, I dunno @ you....  I don't think it really should be thought of as a problem to begin with!

Me

New Lame Video of Me Talking like a few minutes

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Problem

I have to worry @ people watching me in private.  I cannot recover.

Problem

The police won't help me.

Problem

THESE PEOPLE ARE ANNOYING

Problem

My dad simply put shit on.  He was upset, he just ^touches it^.

Problem

If it weren't for certain people in my life, none of this would be a problem!  You didn't figure anything out!

Problem

My dad thinks he can be in my life and affect me.  You just keep letting him know @ me privately when he should not be in my life cuz I'm really smart and he's really mean and careless.

Problem

You're just a beast with no control.

Problem

My parents are sending secret threats to other people!

Problem

I'm not singing for bread.  I need bread now!

Problem

They won't shut up.

My dad passed me and my pr***** felt more flabby.  I was gonna sing and already worked out and am not sure what to do.  I was complaining @ being kicked outta singing @ Loyola.  And Ellen wanting to talk @ stupid stuff, like telling my dad to make my pr***** flabby.

Problem

They are watching me closely and making ridiculous noises that sound really tacky.  They won't stop obsessing over my Gramma's mistake @ me.

Problem

They won't leave me alone and keep calling me shit and say someone else said it.

Wasn't Bothered

I wasn't too bothered @ the drawer slamming, but it seemed sarcastic.

I am upset @ what was said, too.  I feel people are always around me, making fun of me.  I should just go to bed after I eat.

Problem

YOU can't even be in my life.

Problem

They won't shut up.

Problem

They are telling me I have to be with someone I don't wanna be with!  Just go and lie all day!

Problem

I'm tired of your *** analyzing me so I'm gonna tell that I thought my mom was shit automatically.  I never did this before Tim Burton ruined my life..

Situation..

..My mom closed the drawer by my girl sac really loud and lately I haven't even been sure if that's the girl 1.

Good Girl

I had cereal for breakfast, jogged, and then showered.  Now, I am gonna do my singing or eat lunch.

Also, I Think..

And if you just asked me, I think you only protect people for your own self statement of being better than everyone else.  You make a whoopin' deal over it.

I can't seem to get that boy outta my head, the 1 with the tape on parts of his body who was murdered on Facebook I saw.  I feel like I have to type like bandages.  How can anyone think of something so gross?  People in colored countries of that nature don't seem to have it good, but what country is it?  Like, they seem to be fascinated with disgusting ways of looking at the body.  White people have looked at me like that, but I also look at them like that but in a different way.  They go ranging like a wild animal that they have to be #1.

Apology

I am very sorry what passed through my head in my morning jog.  Some people didn't care @ what was on my mind and sounded like they said Viet.  I proceeded and felt upset and more people had attacked.  I even took a different route today.

I do think it is *** to ask me to go back and think @ it, though.

I am sorry if you didn't like me posting @ seeing something cruel and honestly disgusting on Facebook.  This is my blog, and I will write what I will write, though.  There's nothing wrong with what happened to me.  I just can't seem to escape my problems.  I will probably make a special list of people to follow on Facebook again.

Mobile

may or may not post

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Mobile

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Problem

I am upset that people are still picking on me for throwing a water bottle around my room when I Was upset, with no one home, but they can tell.  I was upset and hit my table, too, when my dad was home and irritating me.  You think you've just collected $200 and passed go, but you haven't.  That's just a healthy way of letting out anger, but it is damaging.  Also, you shouldn't be bothering someone.  Also, I am not always respected, these days.  It's just sick to see.  Things were gonna go well, and ^it^ is not for you to decide to prolong your nasty period like chess or Checkers.  And you can't infuse lies on me on how things are to go.  This is no good, you just testing me all the time.  I'm not just a happy-go-lucky freak.  I can't even understand you ruining 1 of my days and making me feel blue.

Ugh!

Laundry - want sleep

WO HO

I am so sorry must have been tired my mistake .. I forgot there was a "thing" @ English accents being shallow, impolite - NAH

BUT I can help

I'm not going, again.

My stomach is bloated.  I can feel, it hurts.

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Sarah Brightman

I was surprised when I tested myself, I was all shaky when I was older in high school about to do a solo in church chorus. No one cared all that much, maybe my teacher was holding me. In Master Classes, I probably shook and wasn't worried @ messing up tho. Strange at the jury I remember 2nd semester singing that in front of the adults made me in such a sensation like I'd just sung in front of a great crowd and my whole body felt like it was flying.

Lots of people are here to help you. I think you have it better than me right now, but I know in cases like this things change -for me! You were responsible for your voice and didn't second guess yourself where inappropriate. Just get rid of the problem when you have 1, like me, depending on the situation.

I want to give the world a sacrifice of 1 more singer, me. I don't think I will ever fully give up the talent.

You are a beautiful singer and gift to the world! You aren't alone, Sarah, there are people here who want to touch you and help you! Thank you for posting your quote and the beautiful photo. It's so much fun to read what your fans have said!

Problem

People younger than my dad or my mom want to help me, but people think since my dad is older that I should only get that from him.  I mean, that's my mom.

I know why..

..I had candy for breakfast.

2 Mothers 2 Daughters - ***

There were 2 beautiful girls who loved 1 another so much.. 1 was the baby, Bella Thorne.  Her big sis Christina loved her so much, but she was usually with her 2 mommies.  Now, Bella is more like her mommy Sarah, and Christina is a twin to Ellen in some ways sometimes.  There were also orphaned kids who came by with whom Ellen shared a great interest.  Christina loved all the visiting people, like witches and warlocks.  Christina in this situation in her life sensed that Sarah, while with her baby Bella, spent time concerned over her in the silence because she was in the same family.  Christina worried @ it, I mean it made sense to her in this queer world, but that was not how the world was made to be, with problems.  Bella was with Ellen sometimes still but not a lot.  She was controlled by Sarah.  Christina helped in the home while Ellen was gone and went off herself at night, like a night fairy.

So

Bella Thorne on Twitter must be lonely.  I hope my depression does not catch.  I need to get my singing down and start going around performing.  I found someone I could call who could record for me etc. or maybe perform with me, if I find the right # again, which I probably should.  Someone should know.  I should sell all my songs as CDs on iTunes, 1st.  The next goal is to improve singing since there's nowhere to perform.

Sad

Depressed things I do can't be fixed.  Just a bad chance.  Some things put me in line when I realize they're wrong.

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Good Pianist

Check out her background: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hélène_Grimaud

The interesting part goes from 26:13 to the end.  It'll start there automatically.

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Tuesday, March 11, 2014

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They're rated good but not perfect.

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I think for any artist of her caliber, that the touring and the road and the performances will take its toll on your physical being. I would hope that she takes several months off a year to cleanse, detox and get lots of massages.
Yea, lots of messages will go her way. You're right, though. Don't you wish that we'd be able to meet famous people? Unfortunately, it's also things like "Universal" that appeal to me for a meeting spot for people.. "These people, these faces.." No, really, though, there's lots of budding talent out there still. Some are great but went just making it. I don't know why Sarah is so special. Maybe, she had a lot going for her.
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True

I don't do those things after I find what others's reception is.  I would if I didn't need anyone.  Just think of it as being cool but not meaning something stupid.

Wrong

Do you realize you're doing something wrong when you do it and are you always in a cranky mood?

Well, I guess people are just pickier than I thought.  I don't give a care what my dad says, not mentioning race even when you don't mean anything really bad.. people think you must

Story

There was in the world a nice girl named Christina.  She wanted to be a singer.  People enjoyed a resounding development.  A new singer came to town with a great permeating voice.  Sometimes, she didn't care what she sounded like in a way, and Christina noticed and in the end it threw her off.  That's not exactly what it was but something.  She continued her singing in the area, and people still adored her and knew who she was.  She left the city and was cold and alone with no friends, just a sum of money to get her to the next town into her next home.  She made adoring crafts of this singer she loved, the 1 who came to town.  She made a career with her ability to accompany and went home and sang her heart at night to the Lord and to Broadway and even touching opera.

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My Singing - all good but nto pristine

Nitey

Hope I get enough sleep, lay down earlier, now have some new sinsing of me to listen to.

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2 from El Phantome de'l'Opera (sp?)
2 from West Side Story

Controlling Violence

I tried, but I need my own reasons.
How do you feel @ people who have no regard for others's feelings?
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Height

A more solid 5'2"

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New Video of Me Singing - just shows my voice isn't warbly but a 4/5 for now

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Story

There was a girl on a journey named Christina.  She was beautiful with a beautiful hat.  She found a friend a year younger and said, "duck," and past her swung a strange wild man yodeling, too.  They bumped through the forest on a trek.  Finally things got cooler.  They kept on many a day, finding water to sail through.  Finally, it was cold and they saw penguins.  They lived catching fish and warm in an igloo.  They had a pack of things.  Soon, some men came with supplies they left.  They repaid them with lots of caught fish they tired to catch.  "Oh, I wish, I wish, I wish I were a penguin," sang Christina.  She fell into a fantasy gliding through, something of a human dolphin or penguin.  She went deep into the water.  It seemed safe.  She found a little hole she could go in with a tunnel made toward land.  She woke up and they helped the men build a village further away where it was sturdy.  When the village was done, they lived in it.  After awhile, it became a ghost village.  They moved back to Norway.  Then, they moved to the U.S. and tried to save the witches.

Good Morning Sun Shine Good Morning Sun Shine..

I had a dream @ me not getting killed hiding in space in all these machines that were made.

Story..

Also

I said sorry @ my bow and arrow fantasy, but I was annoyed at how my mom was acting driving.  She wouldn't stop.