cont.

Ellen is acting like that's a punishment I deserve, to lose her kindness and to have to think @ someone younger when talking to her.  I don't deserve any punishment, and she has nothing to say online it seems, always crunching in Bella for no reason.  This is not for Bella to talk about but me letting out what's wrong before I can figure it out without saying anything because it's so hard I know.  Let me see if I can solve it from here?  Bella is getting appropriate attention.  Lots of it.  What about the other poeple?  I don't care if she's from where I'm from, she's still insulting me.  She just planted noises in my room all day, as though I dream @ her.  I understand, but I am not here to put toenail polish on anyone other than I do myself..  I am not saying no don't pay attention to her, but it depresses me each day that I think it's my age, too, and playing around punishing me.  What makes Bella so young and special today compared to her?

Problem

It makes me sad that Bella is talking to Ellen.  It's done in a way that's an insult to me and takes away time I had with Ellen, like she literally spends less time on me.

All I can say is if she did it normally, like judging from more people, I would not be sad.

... Bella was a friend, but now I think because of other people who are making me uncomfortable, I am losing communicating even through the experiment.

So

Is Ellen just putting on something looking for attention?  Was I supposed to take that @ being from New Orleans?  I know this sounds sarcastic, but it's not.  Should I call it quits or no?  She seems to always promise me something good in the end, but she keeps doing things like this.

Problem

So, it's apporpriate for the teens in her audience to feel?? but not I said the fly.  Just don't want to like dip my toes in the water?

Sorry

I had to apologize for some recent things.

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Ellen: Here she is.

Here she isn't!

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Ellen: Stands up and drags Christina onto the staage. Christina is caught up in the moment and reluctantly but happily sits down.

Ellen: So, you're 1/2 Chinese.
Christina: Why, thank you! *blushes*

Wha?

I'm used to being stuffed: chicken, rice, broccoli, corn, carrots, cucumbers.  Bleh.

So

ELLEN I AM EUROPEAN HAPPY?
They're testing the water..  I look okay in desire.

Because you don't have to literally do|think it.

I hope the answer isn't what made me ask.

So

This is my blog.  Let's see what if Ellen asked @ me being Chinese?  "So, you're Chinese, bye."  Or "So, you're Chinese." "Bye."

I have a question for Ellen if I'm allowed.  Why do you think you have to act like you're doing something testy literally, like bad, just so someone can get the feel of it for pleasure, as though they have something and can hurt you?

Sometimes, people don't know if I'm Chinese.  No one who's not got something even wants to be Chinese.

Wow you people have nothing but s*** to go through.

and I don't give a flying f*** @ LA

So

So, you're not in my life.

Ellen is in Bella's life and Portia's life.

I AM WHITE.  BE GLAD.  THAT'S ALL I HAVE TO SAY AND AM WAITING FOR LITERALLY A SORT OF "UNTAMED" REACTION AND NOT AN RESPONSE.

How is that rude?  You're not Chinese.  I don't have to be Chinese.  I chose what I liked racially.  I don't know why you can't go from there.  I am sorry if anyone is offended, but I think if you're offended you're technically used to just tossing out the Chinese like a Holocaust.

I'm not gonna listen that I'm Chinese.  Not if you say I'm different in a bad way.

I know.

You all didn't tell us to blog so you don't have those Cindy Brady's all being responsible for how they hurt us.

What I'd Have Liked

If I was told by people to get a blog at 11 and 12.  You could have done that instead of e-mail.  AH!!! !!! !!! !!!  AH !!! !!!

I feel..

..a sense of strength from watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."

Problem

Ellen can't accept she isn't perfect.  She punishes and then takes it back each time.  What does she say?  She'll act like 1 thing then go back and say she just did it for fun!  Sounds like someone said her definition is to block older kids and welcome younger 1s.  Important to say not to just toss her but to solve the public interest and your own personal problems.  You can go by and say it didn't happen.