BAH

This is too depressing and it isn't true.  But yes I got a downer.  People ask why you.  I ask why who.

But

Bella is special, too.

Just so you know..

..there are more Bella's out there, more beauties.

This

is what's normal.  You talk about something, something important you don't yet understand.  It's even how things work when no one else solves them.  This was mostly unnecessary, I was just mad, like stomping my feet, but I must say I am sad for some reason I don't feel as much of Ellen.  It means she's tired of me, when I've just been in misery for no reason.

I could stop, but I guess I'm not feeling that way about time.  I could just say less, but I didn't really know what to say.  What is Bella really doing, I must ask?  She is just feeling good and not talking to me but involved in me all the time online.

All I can say is this..

..I can say something.

Problem

So what is this another punishment?  I'm watching this show every day and this is what happens?  Where are all the other watchers, not online?

Let's just say I fend for myself, no Ellen there.. well, she wants to say she's there, and she's there, but in a way she's not there, though that's not important..  It seems my day isn't full of fun and feeling.  It was before Bella.

Problem

Why am I hooked on Ellen in such a way with all the energy going to Bella??  ':[  I don't care.

Recovery

I am happy but don't feel Ellen.  Never did exactly, but I'm not as feeling happy or anything.  :|

So

I'll maybe go through and read it.

Well

I went on IMDb and people were discussing c***ing.

Phrase

"Who cares @ Bella?"  I just mean that we care @ her too much and not anyone else and that I am dumped.  I can't even feel as well.

Apology

Sorry I was so mad, but you can go back and read what happened.  I'm trying to sort out my thoughts and figure it out.  All I can say is I could be more appropriate, except that some of what I said carried meaning.

Even if..

Even if it's wrong, Ellen is paying attention to Bella.  Too much, like she doesn't care @ me, anymore.  Maybe she doies, but I feel no affection.  I care @ Ellen.  Guess you do, too.  Who cares @ Bella?  What about all the other people from Fort Lauderdale?  What's so special @ it?  You should move there, possibly..then again maybe not.  Not as much as some other people maybe, .. dunno what would happen do you?

What I Found

I don't feel Ellen anymore, but Bella does.  Who cares @ Bella, though?  She wasn't in this.  I will find out what's wrong..

Well, Ellen might need a break.  Maybe, this is inappropriate.  Still, she insulted me, what I wanna talk about?

People are also making fun of me.

Forget her!  I'm kidding @ expressing myself with letters.

Rude

Ha ha how funny!

Problem

Ellen is the 1 who looks like she has a temper.  Now what?  I have to watch the show and she insults me online.  I don't feel close to her.  I also hit my head.

Problem

Ellen does spend undue time on me maybe, but I feel something is missing.  I was happy to have Bella onboard, but now Ellen talks to her all the time.  I don't feel I wanna talk to her anymore.  I don't feel her presence.  I feel like it's all @ Bella.  Why do I have to have her in my life!  She wasn't there before.  I thought she was my friend, not my replacement.  That just means I dunno I can't have her online it seems.  W** is Bella doing?

Mad

I have no one.

There's no mystery.

It's like no Christina.  What is going on?  Should I just call it quits and say hey I really have no one maybe?  I'm pretty lonely.  I think they're talking to Bella through her mom.