There was a baby named Bella, and her mother was Sarah, a beautiful young maiden who lived among flowers and in town surrounded by farmland.
There is a girl named Christina, who also has a baby of her own, named Charlotte.. I just noticed the similarity in the names. Christina found it fascinating simply how much Sarah and Bella looked the same, really. Other people found it odd and strangely shunned away. Christina was allowed to enter their beautiful home, while her baby lay asleep at home in her crib. Christina went about, and someone started talking about them. Christina had no option but to listen and tried to ignore it when she was busy getting her food and stuff. Anyway, they said that Sarah had her child in sin. "What?" thought Christina. "I know that's the only thing they could indicate. Whatever do they mean, though? I think not! It's perfectly fine! Everyone goes off and marries and has a kid sometime, and she was married."
Christina walked home and sadly looked at Charlotte, wondering why no one cared.
Christina thought more about how rude those people had to be. People are always so rude or risque if they are good usually it seemed. She thought of old times in school with friends and courting, not much of which she did. She realized something.. She realized that some people based their lives on getting away from her because of her race having white Chinese, which was supposed to be accepted and for other things besides which are of little importance to try and discuss. Christina lay on her bed crying knowing Charlotte was even more of an issue and a real sin, perhaps as she was. She thought of other well-known people who ^used^ their kids supposedly really in the wrong way. They were bossy and got their way for being white. She still didn't believe the other baby to have any problems. She knew of the husband as a fine yet fickle gentleman, and the mother promised never to have another baby and keep this child forever, though. Christina felt somewhat orphaned. She went off to see relatives in the summer and was away busy with school all year, along with eating and drinking.
What did she think of most people when they did what they did, though? She tried to not care what other people thought. She retreated to her own world and for some reason went back to the issue that no one loved her, no one liked her, even a bit, it seemed. No one went to parties that she could attend. She used to look up to Sarah, but she retired to being a stay at home woman for the most part, like herself. She got the message clear no one wanted her and took Charlotte and tried to achieve her own fortune. There was another lady, too, though, who seemed to be up and down, fun like a clown. She wasn't mad but seemed like nothing was ever about her really and people didn't really talk to her anymore. They thought they had contended with her. She was most irritated @ how she got upset it seemed and people found out and wouldn't trust her, though they all had their issues of getting mad in public and in front of others. She could just see that no one wanted her and grew tired of having any interest and wondered if she also didn't matter in any way. If people were mad at her for being Chinese, it made her very mad and emotionless. She didn't act like she wasn't white|European. She knew there was some mistake. Usually, she'd have an answer. That answer was she was right all along there is no problem and that we can't all be robots all the time, no one is a symmetrical ^case^ of a person. She wondered if she was expected to support others who got something that they liked while possibly she was being used for some reason. She didn't know what all she could do to win the world. People said she messed up because she was part Chinese, and that was horrific and she decided to leave that city and put Charlotte up for adoption. She wasn't sure if that was the way to end it all and brought Charlotte with her, someone to guide and mold and give a little tickle to in the morning sun. Anyway, she would still come and visit but found a bigger city. In the new town, it was a fresh beginning with stuff for her to learn. She was sometimes violent as a child but not anymore. She had permanently worn herself with exercise. She knew of Sarah's family and felt that she insulted her child. She could not take "an eye for an eye." She wanted only pleasing things. There just seemed to be a line that was crossed, perhaps supposed to be an ice breaker of a twisted 2-sided joke. She just knew that she felt a sad, empty feeling that might not go away. She knew that she was not loved, and the people she knew knew that, too. In this case, it might be okay, but it seemed to trigger a response. It seemed that people wanted to punish her. Fine, then, that's why she left. It seemed that other people could be treated better and that more people would love them for it.