Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Problem

I'm not singing for bread.  I need bread now!

Problem

They won't shut up.

My dad passed me and my pr***** felt more flabby.  I was gonna sing and already worked out and am not sure what to do.  I was complaining @ being kicked outta singing @ Loyola.  And Ellen wanting to talk @ stupid stuff, like telling my dad to make my pr***** flabby.

Problem

They are watching me closely and making ridiculous noises that sound really tacky.  They won't stop obsessing over my Gramma's mistake @ me.

Problem

They won't leave me alone and keep calling me shit and say someone else said it.

Wasn't Bothered

I wasn't too bothered @ the drawer slamming, but it seemed sarcastic.

I am upset @ what was said, too.  I feel people are always around me, making fun of me.  I should just go to bed after I eat.

Problem

YOU can't even be in my life.

Problem

They won't shut up.

Problem

They are telling me I have to be with someone I don't wanna be with!  Just go and lie all day!

Problem

I'm tired of your *** analyzing me so I'm gonna tell that I thought my mom was shit automatically.  I never did this before Tim Burton ruined my life..

Situation..

..My mom closed the drawer by my girl sac really loud and lately I haven't even been sure if that's the girl 1.

Good Girl

I had cereal for breakfast, jogged, and then showered.  Now, I am gonna do my singing or eat lunch.

Also, I Think..

And if you just asked me, I think you only protect people for your own self statement of being better than everyone else.  You make a whoopin' deal over it.

I can't seem to get that boy outta my head, the 1 with the tape on parts of his body who was murdered on Facebook I saw.  I feel like I have to type like bandages.  How can anyone think of something so gross?  People in colored countries of that nature don't seem to have it good, but what country is it?  Like, they seem to be fascinated with disgusting ways of looking at the body.  White people have looked at me like that, but I also look at them like that but in a different way.  They go ranging like a wild animal that they have to be #1.

Apology

I am very sorry what passed through my head in my morning jog.  Some people didn't care @ what was on my mind and sounded like they said Viet.  I proceeded and felt upset and more people had attacked.  I even took a different route today.

I do think it is *** to ask me to go back and think @ it, though.

I am sorry if you didn't like me posting @ seeing something cruel and honestly disgusting on Facebook.  This is my blog, and I will write what I will write, though.  There's nothing wrong with what happened to me.  I just can't seem to escape my problems.  I will probably make a special list of people to follow on Facebook again.

Mobile

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Mobile

may or may not post

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Problem

I am upset that people are still picking on me for throwing a water bottle around my room when I Was upset, with no one home, but they can tell.  I was upset and hit my table, too, when my dad was home and irritating me.  You think you've just collected $200 and passed go, but you haven't.  That's just a healthy way of letting out anger, but it is damaging.  Also, you shouldn't be bothering someone.  Also, I am not always respected, these days.  It's just sick to see.  Things were gonna go well, and ^it^ is not for you to decide to prolong your nasty period like chess or Checkers.  And you can't infuse lies on me on how things are to go.  This is no good, you just testing me all the time.  I'm not just a happy-go-lucky freak.  I can't even understand you ruining 1 of my days and making me feel blue.

Ugh!

Laundry - want sleep

WO HO

I am so sorry must have been tired my mistake .. I forgot there was a "thing" @ English accents being shallow, impolite - NAH

BUT I can help

I'm not going, again.

My stomach is bloated.  I can feel, it hurts.

Notable Facebook Post

Sarah Brightman

I was surprised when I tested myself, I was all shaky when I was older in high school about to do a solo in church chorus. No one cared all that much, maybe my teacher was holding me. In Master Classes, I probably shook and wasn't worried @ messing up tho. Strange at the jury I remember 2nd semester singing that in front of the adults made me in such a sensation like I'd just sung in front of a great crowd and my whole body felt like it was flying.

Lots of people are here to help you. I think you have it better than me right now, but I know in cases like this things change -for me! You were responsible for your voice and didn't second guess yourself where inappropriate. Just get rid of the problem when you have 1, like me, depending on the situation.

I want to give the world a sacrifice of 1 more singer, me. I don't think I will ever fully give up the talent.

You are a beautiful singer and gift to the world! You aren't alone, Sarah, there are people here who want to touch you and help you! Thank you for posting your quote and the beautiful photo. It's so much fun to read what your fans have said!

Problem

People younger than my dad or my mom want to help me, but people think since my dad is older that I should only get that from him.  I mean, that's my mom.

I know why..

..I had candy for breakfast.

2 Mothers 2 Daughters - ***

There were 2 beautiful girls who loved 1 another so much.. 1 was the baby, Bella Thorne.  Her big sis Christina loved her so much, but she was usually with her 2 mommies.  Now, Bella is more like her mommy Sarah, and Christina is a twin to Ellen in some ways sometimes.  There were also orphaned kids who came by with whom Ellen shared a great interest.  Christina loved all the visiting people, like witches and warlocks.  Christina in this situation in her life sensed that Sarah, while with her baby Bella, spent time concerned over her in the silence because she was in the same family.  Christina worried @ it, I mean it made sense to her in this queer world, but that was not how the world was made to be, with problems.  Bella was with Ellen sometimes still but not a lot.  She was controlled by Sarah.  Christina helped in the home while Ellen was gone and went off herself at night, like a night fairy.

So

Bella Thorne on Twitter must be lonely.  I hope my depression does not catch.  I need to get my singing down and start going around performing.  I found someone I could call who could record for me etc. or maybe perform with me, if I find the right # again, which I probably should.  Someone should know.  I should sell all my songs as CDs on iTunes, 1st.  The next goal is to improve singing since there's nowhere to perform.

Sad

Depressed things I do can't be fixed.  Just a bad chance.  Some things put me in line when I realize they're wrong.

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Good Pianist

Check out her background: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hélène_Grimaud

The interesting part goes from 26:13 to the end.  It'll start there automatically.

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Tuesday, March 11, 2014

New Videos

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They're rated good but not perfect.

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I think for any artist of her caliber, that the touring and the road and the performances will take its toll on your physical being. I would hope that she takes several months off a year to cleanse, detox and get lots of massages.
Yea, lots of messages will go her way. You're right, though. Don't you wish that we'd be able to meet famous people? Unfortunately, it's also things like "Universal" that appeal to me for a meeting spot for people.. "These people, these faces.." No, really, though, there's lots of budding talent out there still. Some are great but went just making it. I don't know why Sarah is so special. Maybe, she had a lot going for her.
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True

I don't do those things after I find what others's reception is.  I would if I didn't need anyone.  Just think of it as being cool but not meaning something stupid.

Wrong

Do you realize you're doing something wrong when you do it and are you always in a cranky mood?

Well, I guess people are just pickier than I thought.  I don't give a care what my dad says, not mentioning race even when you don't mean anything really bad.. people think you must

Story

There was in the world a nice girl named Christina.  She wanted to be a singer.  People enjoyed a resounding development.  A new singer came to town with a great permeating voice.  Sometimes, she didn't care what she sounded like in a way, and Christina noticed and in the end it threw her off.  That's not exactly what it was but something.  She continued her singing in the area, and people still adored her and knew who she was.  She left the city and was cold and alone with no friends, just a sum of money to get her to the next town into her next home.  She made adoring crafts of this singer she loved, the 1 who came to town.  She made a career with her ability to accompany and went home and sang her heart at night to the Lord and to Broadway and even touching opera.

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My Singing - all good but nto pristine

Nitey

Hope I get enough sleep, lay down earlier, now have some new sinsing of me to listen to.

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2 from El Phantome de'l'Opera (sp?)
2 from West Side Story

Controlling Violence

I tried, but I need my own reasons.
How do you feel @ people who have no regard for others's feelings?
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Height

A more solid 5'2"

New Video

New Video of Me Singing - just shows my voice isn't warbly but a 4/5 for now

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Story

There was a girl on a journey named Christina.  She was beautiful with a beautiful hat.  She found a friend a year younger and said, "duck," and past her swung a strange wild man yodeling, too.  They bumped through the forest on a trek.  Finally things got cooler.  They kept on many a day, finding water to sail through.  Finally, it was cold and they saw penguins.  They lived catching fish and warm in an igloo.  They had a pack of things.  Soon, some men came with supplies they left.  They repaid them with lots of caught fish they tired to catch.  "Oh, I wish, I wish, I wish I were a penguin," sang Christina.  She fell into a fantasy gliding through, something of a human dolphin or penguin.  She went deep into the water.  It seemed safe.  She found a little hole she could go in with a tunnel made toward land.  She woke up and they helped the men build a village further away where it was sturdy.  When the village was done, they lived in it.  After awhile, it became a ghost village.  They moved back to Norway.  Then, they moved to the U.S. and tried to save the witches.

Good Morning Sun Shine Good Morning Sun Shine..

I had a dream @ me not getting killed hiding in space in all these machines that were made.

Story..

Also

I said sorry @ my bow and arrow fantasy, but I was annoyed at how my mom was acting driving.  She wouldn't stop.

Happy

I did a successful song this morning.  I mean better not so warbly seems, maybe just a good song.

WWYD

If everyone was hostile, what would you do if you couldn't escape their messages?

Concerned

Once, I was like making noise throwing and maybe hitting things, and since I've been in trouble it seems..  I just couldn't take it!  I didn't do anything!  It's too bad!  But it's so serious and so annoying and I'll say whatever I damn like.

Nitey

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What if I said I was racist?

Question

Why do people never do what I want them to?

It sucks living here.

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So..

..How many people does it take to play "The Phantom of the Opera?"

Way Too Fatigued

Planned to go to Disney for a week, but I guess not.  I'll probably go jogging soon, unless I fall asleep instead.

HAY MAH LOOK WUT I KIN DO

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Story

There was a land where people farmed their own food and could walk a distance and find another cottage.  Christina was cozy with her mother and sister, Sarah..  She had beautiful younger siblings.  She had an older brother, she obeyed.

Well, not so cozy, for she fancied off while the younger ones played and she, at 7, went a courting!  There was a mysterious boy with black hair that had come to intrigue her.  What color were his eyes?  Hm, they look brown.  That was funny, everyone in her life had blue eyes, and hers were green, blue, and yellowish brown in some lighting.  So, she came back and worked hard on the farm for awhile.  She played with her little sisters.  "Sarah!" she called, who was taken aback that what she was to her was "just" a sister..  Would you like me to skin the pig?  "Oh, no, that's man's work!"

It was time to ride to town to go to church, which was several hours away.  The land opened up at the end of the wood.  The year was 1750.  Christina was most ecstatic and bought a pink dress with a matched bonnet that was in style.  She made money from all her hard work but paid a price in looks apparently.

In church, the sermon was long, and 1 sister lay on her lap.  Christina looked at her hair and then back up at the preacher.

The end, and they celebrated with candy and cookies and cake.

Christina learned ways to incorporate the Lord in her life.  Christina was to take lessons on how to have tea like in England soon.  She went the 1st day in her stunning thin white and red dress.  She was good at enunciating for some reason, perhaps from having a bilingual father, English and German.

So, in class, Christina poured tea with elegance and some hesitation but got better.  She came home and she was already mighty happy.

She learned to shoot bears, as well.  She bought a book at church from preparing meat from the wood.  It taught her how to not be as tense, like with a temper.  She learned it was wrong to squirm and how to prevent it from happening, by taking care of herself and regularly praying to the Lord and bowing down before him as a god.  She got religious tokens.  She was able to leave and decided to go to Africa.  Sarah followed her, and the rest of the family decided to go.  Christina was able to sustain herself and was a bit rich.  She preached to the Africans.  She had her shots and took vitamins, as well.  They had a nice house with a guarded farm sorta.  They had to be careful of the wildlife.  The little ones needed to be looked after.  Christina was taught to wrestle snakes in the water but never actually did it.  She ate bugs with them and strange things, all very delicious!  She learned about their past and religion, and Christina told them who they were.

Story

There was a beautiful Queen named Sarah Brightman with a beautiful prized baby named Bella Thorne.  Christina was a servant in the castle and was prized and mighty and so had a daughter of her own, who was actually older than Princess Bella.  Christina was on the farm, and her daughter was learning how to work the farm still a young girl at 7.  She had learned to fold the queen's garments, wash the princess's clothes, and so on and so forth.  1 day, Christina came with her daughter Chloe Grace Sevingy (Sevinyay.)

There was much to do.  The girls had tea parties.  Christina took a break and was allowed to have a mature conversation with the Queen.  Christina was very interested in the daughter now.


Christina and Sarah both moved out 1 day.

They came across a bear, the Queen was not afraid.  She was smart, like many warrior princesses.  Christina made it up a tree.


Finally, they all reached a place, which was gleaming with pride, they had gone over in a long ship ride.  What was it they see, why it was NYC, in the late 1800s.  There was a sign that said someone was watching over them.  They all got a house.  There was 1 for the Queen, and a bunch of people were always visiting.  Christina was still a teenager, and Sarah's prized daughter princess Bella wanted a proper playmate.  Christina was still like a kid.  They played with the gray kitten.  It went in its house when it was done eating its creamy milk stuff..

There was to be a huge carnival.  The Queen was now ranked higher as a witch with access to getting into another world.  Before carnival they found out how to enter other worlds!  The Queen picked up her daughter Bella, who was 5 or 6 years old.  They moved to another place in space a at a rapid pace.  The music heightened and all glory be to God in their hearts it was..  "Wow!" said Christina. "This is better than Happy Potter!"  Bella rested oh so much with Queen Sarah, and Christina still served them like a habit.  In the new world, nothing seemed to replace the comfort of home on Earth, and Christina swore-  Suddenly, they found other people, an ancient civilization from Earth that had found a way out or beings that came from the bacteria found in the planets..

They all lived in a dome and there was supposedly nothing else they ever knew of as a way out.  Perhaps, land was baren.  Bella cried out to her mother who comforted her.  So, Christina noticed things.. instead of dust and crap, she saw a marvelous land of sweets that grew outside that no one touched.  Why didn't the people settle there?  It was a mystery.  They met someone who was trying to come out.  They were being followed, trying to escape being killed for their age.  Boy, they had better get otu.  Christina nudged the Queen and said her and Bella had better go back, but Christina was interested in the chase.  They helped the people leave and left completely and flew into another barren area of stars and no planet in site..

Finally, they reached a place that looked like a swab of a huge dessert, finally after much walking, the Queen carrying the Princess, the people all found an Oasis, no one there but gentle animals-rabbits.

Ah!  So, they refreshed there and wanted to see what else.  They saw they were in a world between worlds..

They all went in the pool and suddenly were back on earth again it seemed..  They found they were in a land called Nervialand.  There was a crusade of animals and half humans, like a child's story book.  "Oh, mother, may I touch," said Ms. Bella.  "Touch what?"  "Dear."  They found some other people who were trapped there, as well.  "What are you looking for?" said Christina.  "I'm Dora, and I'm looking for the powerful Iza."  "Is she your sister?"  "No."  "Why, no, I don't have any sisters.."

So, they all set out to find out this place.  They were able to build a carriage for the Princess to have a peaceful ride in.  They finally reached their destination.  A witch greeted them.  They all discussed their desires to enter the galaxy of philosophy to borrow wisdom.  They were given a star lit carriage that floated them over there, a cozy trip.

So, they entered the land of depression of consciousness.

New Video

Me Singing

rated an initial 5/5 but digresses not to be as interesting the more I watch

Problem

These people are too touchy feely.  I am supposed to sit here and think @ it.  Supposedly, my mom was more special to me than someone else, and she was driving like a madwoman on the inside.

Wow, you wanna get me in trouble.  If you did that to someone else they'd get mad.

Apology

I was upset and imagined using a bow and arrow @ someone but not graphically bad.

Problem

I got really mad @ Blogger being ruined.  No wonder everyone ended up @ WordPress.

I don't wanna get mad, but these people are in my face.

New Photo on Facebook

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Monday, March 10, 2014

Future Punishment

I may be corrected for a future that others have unpunished.

Problem

It's funny you say oh girls born in 1997 don't get anything. They come back begging that's a problem.

Mobile Soon

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Update

Website - 1st page - photo of me

Well..

I seldom do.  I'm usually good, but then I never get what I need in certain ways and then get mad.  I mean, like, I'm still treated like I'm bad and so I sorta go delusional and think maybe there is a risk in the future if I don't change my ways now, but why do I take risks?  I don't mean anything that bad.  Sometimes, it seems wrong not to because people make you think this and this is bad when it's not!

So..

..why not take risks in speaking when in private?

New Videos

New Videos of Me Singing

The rest is here.

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TV

@ Ellen, do you think like people are all into how she feels like a child but then don't care @ themselves being silly kids?

Catching Up

I am watching Ellen on her website for now.

To Address an Issue

Is anyone else on Blogger getting the posted by part to touch the edge on the left now where before it was formatted perfectly??  This happened to me on Firefox and a minor browser.  Opera works okay for viewing.

What do you think of..

..fighting in front of us but waiting for the great finale of teenagers today?  Why can't people reach out already?  So they can blame me?

Problem

I feel everyone is on me like I am the only 1 who's mean ever.

The Other Good 1 The Other Good 1

YouTube

1 more good 1 is coming up.

So..

..because we all love Johnny Depp I have no personality still?  I am the really nice 1, if I get mad or slip up and ya'll never give me a fair chance, you all get upset..and can't deal with anything I do thereafter.  It just gets worse, apology never accepted.  A real apology!  Everyone is in!

Are you the same

online as in life?

Videos

3 More to Go, but at least we have 2 good 1s up so far.. my computer keeps restarting for updates

Not Funny

So, I know you just think I'm shit racially, you can't lie.

I feel bad, I had chicken with sauce, Cheez-Its, and oreos without my extra cream in milk.  I have veggies for a snack.

TV

It's not working right now, have to do some stuff to it.

New Videos

New Videos of Me Singing

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big improvement, can produce a tone that comes through on the camera I know and sounds better in ways than sometimes before, videos with ratings out of 5 and descriptions of quality in title

Ridiculous

Orlando is shit, not these people.

Like, they are getting mad at me still..

cont.

Why?  They are ransacking me around socially because they think something I did was inappropriate a few weeks back, but they are annoying and the group is annoying and I didn't do anything really bad, just felt uncomfortable.

Problem

You all chose to call me Chinese if you think I make 1 little mistake as of a certain point in time.

You think you are literate online but are not.  Yer always bitter.  Don't you feel I'm actually telling you something's missing?

Yes my family and others are on my tail for no reason, along with the selfishness that permeates the perimeter of the support group I'm in until the end of the semester in May.

Problem

You can't just treat me so sickly.  You always do.

Sick

Why are you picking on me for saying someone didn't sound white when they were singing at a certain time?  I said sorry.  I had just been really mad and throwing things on the floor, my water bottles.  It was constructive criticism and now it's a thorn on my side.  You all drawl out shit that doesn't even matter.  Who's responsible??  Why should I do this??  Wow, sorry never cuts it for you cuz I can say whatever I want.  I've been called stuff, as well, so maybe that's why it felt like the next thing.  I was so mad I had cut my hand, though.  That's ^not enough^ for you?  I am so sickened to see you basking in triumph that I'm just shit now.  I'm not a sore loser.  It was just something that was true, didn't know it was a sensitive topic to anyone.

Dream

We had lots of kinds of pizza in a refrigerator like in Star Wars.  I had 1 that melted, the cheese, like a dish, such good sauce, more healthy but smooth.

Bed Time

This is a story @ a little girl in a family of girls and many caring adults.  She lived in a house with a room where she had a house built in for her pet cat whom she shared cream and milk with.  She had golden curls and beautiful blue eyes.  Her name was Abigail.  She had a blue bow in her hair and a blue dress on.  She had a very private life, but sometimes there were other things to do.  She was 12 years old and her 6-year-old sister with white hair and light blue eyes walked in.  Her name was Tammy.  Mommy came in and picked her up.  Some other girls who were 17 came in, her sisters.  Brenda, Beth, and Bella.  They picked her up and they went outside to play.

There was a singing contest, and Tammy was to enter.  Abigail and the girls watched patiently.  They all clapped when she was done.  They went off to the competition.  She won 2nd place to a 12-year-old.  Then, there was a carnival.  They brought pumpkins for a competition.  They had to travel far.  Lots of people went.  They all conversed and had a wonderful time.  They set camp, closed up the caravans and set up tents.  1 girl in a pink dress with reddish blonde curls was out a wan'd'ring.  Abigail noticed.  "Mommy! come here!" she spoke.  Some men came out and they warded off the wolves using fire in the end.  There was a great run about of confusion, but the fire was fetched for ready on command.

A girl in a red dress and with rich brown hair awoke Abigail.  "What is it?"  "A snow fall!"  They went outside and ate snow.

Finally, they arrived.  There was a huge tunnel of love.  Abigail went with some friends.  It was a bit scary and had some quiet times and some coaster times.  It was a dream come true!  Then, the ferris wheels, which though enclosed still were a fright.  Had a ferris wheel ever had a problem??  What would it be like?  A boy with raven hair startled her.  They ended up courting and walking around in the foliage.  He kissed her, and they were a ready couple.  They went back home.  There was a gathering.  They were to move.  Abigail went off on her own to Africa to study.  She ended up nannying a family.  There was a mother named Bridget and her 2 daughters Bo and Bay.  Abby felt like she was a child again, wondered if the raven-haired boy still awaited her.

There was danger about town with witches.  Bridget put her hands around Abby's shoulder and said she would take care of her.  They all fled.  Some scary things took place.  People were r**ed and murdered.  "Ah! I'm scared!" she said.  Bridget picked her up and they all had fled.  They found a nice place in the dessert that was guarded by its people and learned to live and flourish.

So..

..Sarah Brightman does not like singing Andrew Lloyd Webber?  [Anymore..]

Bed Soon

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Like It Is

If everyone I knew treated me differently for being called a nigger, shit would fly out.

Dresses Up

I'M STILL ME - QUIT GETTING MAD AT ME WHEN I FEEL DRUNK

SITTIN' AROUN'

I SIT AROUND ALL DAY FEELING BAD

My mom might let me stay in a hotel for a month.

Question

Why doesn't anyone MOVE ON

Sickening

The way I'm treated.. it brings me down!  No~ No~ No~ No~ No~

Simply Put

All I meant ^that time^ was that a part of it sounded like she was turned off, thought you'd know and not want me to explain.  What if everything I said was wrong?  Guess that sticks out.

Sorry

I still feel bad @ what I said @ Sarah Brightman.  Why is my singing so much better?  I've been practicing and no one was able to trip me up?

Issue

This is all much too uptight.  Let me be the person I am.  Quit saying I have too many blanks.

Problem

You can't just sit there and hurt me.

I feel

sometimes my pursuit of singing is worthless and I should stick to movies, but I know what's out there.